The sentence was cut by a roar of
laughter
from Boulte's lips.
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Boulte that her man among men, her Ted--for she called him Ted in the
old days when Boulte was out of earshot--was slipping the links of the
allegiance.
"The Vansuythen Woman has taken him," Mrs. Boulte said to herself;
and when Boulte was away, wept over her belief, in the face of the
over-vehement blandishments of Ted. Sorrow in Kashima is as fortunate
as Love, because there is nothing to weaken it save the flight of Time.
Mrs. Boulte had never breathed her suspicion to Kurrell because she was
not certain; and her nature led her to be very certain before she took
steps in any direction. That is why she behaved as she did.
Boulte came into the house one evening, and leaned against the
door-posts of the drawing-room, chewing his moustache. Mrs. Boulte was
putting some flowers into a vase. There is a pretence of civilization
even in Kashima.
"Little woman," said Boulte, quietly, "do you care for me? "
"Immensely," said she, with a laugh. "Can you ask it? "
"But I'm serious," said Boulte. "Do you care for me? "
Mrs. Boulte dropped the flowers, and turned round quickly. "Do you want
an honest answer? "
"Ye-es, I've asked for it. "
Mrs. Boulte spoke in a low, even voice for five minutes, very
distinctly, that there might be no misunderstanding her meaning. When
Samson broke the pillars of Gaza, he did a little thing, and one not to
be compared to the deliberate pulling down of a woman's homestead about
her own ears. There was no wise female friend to advise Mrs. Boulte,
the singularly cautious wife, to hold her hand. She struck at Boulte's
heart, because her own was sick with suspicion of Kurrell, and worn out
with the long strain of watching alone through the Rains. There was
no plan or purpose in her speaking. The sentences made themselves; and
Boulte listened leaning against the door-post with his hands in his
pockets. When all was over, and Mrs. Boulte began to breathe through her
nose before breaking out into tears, he laughed and stared straight in
front of him at the Dosehri hills.
"Is that all? " he said. "Thanks, I only wanted to know, you know. "
"What are you going to do? " said the woman, between her sobs.
"Do! Nothing. What should I do? Kill Kurrell or send you Home, or
apply for leave to get a divorce? It's two days' dak into Narkarra. " He
laughed again and went on: "I'll tell you what you can do. You can ask
Kurrell to dinner tomorrow--no, on Thursday, that will allow you time to
pack--and you can bolt with him. I give you my word I won't follow. "
He took up his helmet and went out of the room, and Mrs. Boulte sat till
the moonlight streaked the floor, thinking and thinking and thinking.
She had done her best upon the spur of the moment to pull the house
down; but it would not fall. Moreover, she could not understand her
husband, and she was afraid. Then the folly of her useless truthfulness
struck her, and she was ashamed to write to Kurrell, saying: "I have
gone mad and told everything. My husband says that I am free to elope
with you. Get a dak for Thursday, and we will fly after dinner. " There
was a cold-bloodedness about that procedure which did not appeal to her.
So she sat still in her own house and thought.
At dinner-time Boulte came back from his walk, white and worn and
haggard, and the woman was touched at his distress. As the evening wore
on, she muttered some expression of sorrow, something approaching to
contrition. Boulte came out of a brown study and said, "Oh, that! I
wasn't thinking about that. By the way, what does Kurrell say to the
elopement? "
"I haven't seen him," said Mrs. Boulte. "Good God! is that all? "
But Boulte was not listening, and her sentence ended in a gulp.
The next day brought no comfort to Mrs. Boulte, for Kurrell did not
appear, and the new life that she, in the five minutes' madness of the
previous evening, had hoped to build out of the ruins of the old, seemed
to be no nearer.
Boulte ate his breakfast, advised her to see her Arab pony fed in the
veranda, and went out. The morning wore through, and at midday the
tension became unendurable. Mrs. Boulte could not cry. She had finished
her crying in the night, and now she did not want to be left alone.
Perhaps the Vansuythen woman would talk to her; and, since talking
opens the heart, perhaps there might be some comfort to be found in her
company. She was the only other woman in the Station.
In Kashima there are no regular calling-hours. Every one can drop in
upon every one else at pleasure. Mrs. Boulte put on a big terai hat, and
walked across to the Vansuythens's house to borrow last week's Queen.
The two compounds touched, and instead of going up the drive, she
crossed through the gap in the cactus-hedge, entering the house from
the back. As she passed through the dining-room, she heard, behind
the purdah that cloaked the drawing-room door, her husband's voice,
saying--"But on my Honor! On my Soul and Honor, I tell you she doesn't
care for me. She told me so last night. I would have told you then if
Vansuythen hadn't been with you. If it is for her sake that you'll have
nothing to say to me, you can make your mind easy. It's Kurrell. "
"What? " said Mrs. Vansuythen, with an hysterical little laugh. "Kurrell!
Oh, it can't be. You two must have made some horrible mistake. Perhaps
you--you lost your temper, or misunderstood, or something. Things can't
be as wrong as you say. "
Mrs. Vansuythen had shifted her defence to avoid the man's pleading, and
was desperately trying to keep him to a side-issue.
"There must be some mistake," she insisted, "and it can be all put right
again. "
Boulte laughed grimly.
"It can't be Captain Kurrell! He told me that he had never taken the
least--the least interest in your wife, Mr. Boulte. Oh, do listen! He
said he had not. He swore he had not," said Mrs. Vansuythen.
The purdah rustled, and the speech was cut short by the entry of a
little, thin woman with big rings round her eyes. Mrs. Vansuythen stood
up with a gasp.
"What was that you said? " asked Mrs. Boulte. "Never mind that man. What
did Ted say to you? What did he say to you? What did he say to you? "
Mrs. Vansuythen sat down helplessly on the sofa, overborne by the
trouble of her questioner.
"He said--I can't remember exactly what he said--but I understood him
to say--that is--But, really, Mrs. Boulte, isn't it rather a strange
question? "
"Will you tell me what he said? " repeated Mrs. Boulte.
Even a tiger will fly before a bear robbed of her whelps, and Mrs.
Vansuythen was only an ordinarily good woman. She began in a sort of
desperation: "Well, he said that he never cared for you at all, and,
of course, there was not the least reason why he should have,
and--and--that was all. "
"You said he swore he had not cared for me. Was that true? "
"Yes," said Mrs. Vansuythen, very softly.
Mrs. Boulte wavered for an instant where she stood, and then fell
forward fainting.
"What did I tell you? " said Boulte, as though the conversation had been
unbroken. "You can see for yourself she cares for him. " The light began
to break into his dull mind, and he went on--"And he--what was he saying
to you? "
But Mrs. Vansuythen, with no heart for explanations or impassioned
protestations, was kneeling over Mrs. Boulte.
"Oh, you brute! " she cried. "Are all men like this? Help me to get her
into my room--and her face is cut against the table. Oh, will you be
quiet, and help me to carry her? I hate you, and I hate Captain Kurrell.
Lift her up carefully and now--go! Go away! "
Boulte carried his wife into Mrs. Vansuythen's bedroom and departed
before the storm of that lady's wrath and disgust, impenitent
and burning with jealousy. Kurrell had been making love to Mrs.
Vansuythen--would do Vansuythen as great a wrong as he had done Boulte,
who caught himself considering whether Mrs. Vansuythen would faint if
she discovered that the man she loved had foresworn her.
In the middle of these meditations, Kurrell came cantering along the
road and pulled up with a cheery, "Good mornin'. 'Been mashing Mrs.
Vansuythen as usual, eh? Bad thing for a sober, married man, that. What
will Mrs Boulte say? "
Boulte raised his head and said, slowly, "Oh, you liar! "
Kurrell's face changed. "What's that? " he asked, quickly.
"Nothing much," said Boulte. "Has my wife told you that you two are free
to go off whenever you please? She has been good enough to explain
the situation to me. You've been a true friend to me, Kurrell--old
man--haven't you? "
Kurrell groaned, and tried to frame some sort of idiotic sentence about
being willing to give "satisfaction. " But his interest in the woman was
dead, had died out in the Rains, and, mentally, he was abusing her for
her amazing indiscretion. It would have been so easy to have broken off
the thing gently and by degrees, and now he was saddled with--Boulte's
voice recalled him.
"I don't think I should get any satisfaction from killing you, and I'm
pretty sure you'd get none from killing me. "
Then in a querulous tone, ludicrously disproportioned to his wrongs,
Boulte added--"'Seems rather a pity that you haven't the decency to keep
to the woman, now you've got her. You've been a true friend to her too,
haven't you? "
Kurrell stared long and gravely. The situation was getting beyond him.
"What do you mean? " he said.
Boulte answered, more to himself than the questioner: "My wife came
over to Mrs. Vansuythen's just now; and it seems you'd been telling
Mrs. Vansuythen that you'd never cared for Emma. I suppose you lied, as
usual. What had Mrs. Vansuythen to do with you, or you with her? Try to
speak the truth for once in a way. "
Kurrell took the double insult without wincing, and replied by another
question: "Go on. What happened? "
"Emma fainted," said Boulte, simply. "But, look here, what had you been
saying to Mrs. Vansuythen? "
Kurrell laughed. Mrs. Boulte had, with unbridled tongue, made havoc of
his plans; and he could at least retaliate by hurting the man in whose
eyes he was humiliated and shown dishonorable.
"Said to her? What does a man tell a lie like that for? I suppose I said
pretty much what you've said, unless I'm a good deal mistaken. "
"I spoke the truth," said Boulte, again more to himself than Kurrell.
"Emma told me she hated me. She has no right in me. "
"No! I suppose not. You're only her husband, y'know. And what did Mrs.
Vansuythen say after you had laid your disengaged heart at her feet? "
Kurrell felt almost virtuous as he put the question.
"I don't think that matters," Boulte replied; "and it doesn't concern
you. "
"But it does! I tell you it does" began Kurrell, shamelessly.
The sentence was cut by a roar of laughter from Boulte's lips. Kurrell
was silent for an instant, and then he, too, laughed--laughed long and
loudly, rocking in his saddle. It was an unpleasant sound--the mirthless
mirth of these men on the long, white line of the Narkarra Road. There
were no strangers in Kashima, or they might have thought that captivity
within the Dosehri hills had driven half the European population mad.
The laughter ended abruptly, and Kurrell was the first to speak.
"Well, what are you going to do? "
Boulte looked up the road, and at the hills. "Nothing," said he,
quietly; "what's the use? It's too ghastly for anything. We must let the
old life go on. I can only call you a hound and a liar, and I can't go
on calling you names forever. Besides which, I don't feel that I'm much
better. We can't get out of this place. What is there to do? "
Kurrell looked round the rat-pit of Kashima and made no reply. The
injured husband took up the wondrous tale.
"Ride on, and speak to Emma if you want to. God knows I don't care what
you do. "
He walked forward and left Kurrell gazing blankly after him. Kurrell did
not ride on either to see Mrs. Boulte or Mrs. Vansuythen. He sat in his
saddle and thought, while his pony grazed by the roadside.
The whir of approaching wheels roused him. Mrs. Vansuythen was driving
home Mrs. Boulte, white and wan, with a cut on her forehead.
"Stop, please," said Mrs. Boulte "I want to speak to Ted. "
Mrs. Vansuythen obeyed, but as Mrs. Boulte leaned forward, putting her
hand upon the splash-board of the dog-cart, Kurrell spoke.
"I've seen your husband, Mrs. Boulte. "
There was no necessity for any further explanation. The man's eyes were
fixed, not upon Mrs. Boulte, but her companion. Mrs. Boulte saw the
look.
"Speak to him! " she pleaded, turning to the woman at her side. "Oh,
speak to him! Tell him what you told me just now. Tell him you hate him.
Tell him you hate him! "
She bent forward and wept bitterly, while the sais, impassive, went
forward to hold the horse. Mrs. Vansuythen turned scarlet and dropped
the reins. She wished to be no party to such unholy explanations.
"I've nothing to do with it," she began, coldly; but Mrs. Boulte's sobs
overcame her, and she addressed herself to the man. "I don't know what
I am to say, Captain Kurrell. I don't know what I can call you. I think
you've--you've behaved abominably, and she has cut her forehead terribly
against the table. "
"It doesn't hurt. It isn't anything," said Mrs. Boulte feebly. "That
doesn't matter. Tell him what you told me. Say you don't care for him.
Oh, Ted, won't you believe her? "
"Mrs. Boulte has made me understand that you were--that you were fond of
her once upon a time," went on Mrs. Vansuythen.
"Well! " said Kurrell brutally. "It seems to me that Mrs. Boulte had
better be fond of her own husband first. "
"Stop! " said Mrs. Vansuythen. "Hear me first. I don't care--I don't want
to know anything about you and Mrs. Boulte; but I want you to know that
I hate you, that I think you are a cur, and that I'll never, never speak
to you again. Oh, I don't dare to say what I think of you, you--man!
_Sais,_ gorah _ko_ jane _do_. "
"I want to speak to Ted," moaned Mrs. Boulte, but the dog-cart rattled
on, and Kurrell was left on the road, shamed, and boiling with wrath
against Mrs. Boulte.
He waited till Mrs. Vansuythen was driving back to her own house,
and, she being freed from the embarrassment of Mrs. Boulte's presence,
learned for the second time her opinion of himself and his actions.
In the evenings, it was the wont of all Kashima to meet at the platform
on the Narkarra Road, to drink tea, and discuss the trivialities of
the day. Major Vansuythen and his wife found themselves alone at the
gathering-place for almost the first time in their remembrance; and
the cheery Major, in the teeth of his wife's remarkably reasonable
suggestion that the rest of the Station might be sick, insisted upon
driving round to the two bungalows and unearthing the population.
"Sitting in the twilight! " said he, with great indignation to the
Boultes. "That'll never do! Hang it all, we're one family here! You must
come out, and so must Kurrell. I'll make him bring his banjo. " So great
is the power of honest simplicity and a good digestion over guilty
consciences that all Kashima did turn out, even down to the banjo; and
the Major embraced the company in one expansive grin. As he grinned,
Mrs. Vansuythen raised her eyes for an instant and looked at all
Kashima. Her meaning was clear. Major Vansuythen would never know
anything. He was to be the outsider in that happy family whose cage was
the Dosehri hills.
"You're singing villainously out of tune, Kurrell," said the Major,
truthfully. "Pass me that banjo. "
And he sang in excruciating-wise till the stars came out and all Kashima
went to dinner.
* * * * *
That was the beginning of the New Life of Kashima--the life that Mrs.
Boulte made when her tongue was loosened in the twilight.
Mrs. Vansuythen has never told the Major; and since be insists upon
keeping up a burdensome geniality, she has been compelled to break her
vow of not speaking to Kurrell. This speech, which must of necessity
preserve the semblance of politeness and interest, serves admirably to
keep alive the flame of jealousy and dull hatred in Boulte's bosom, as
it awakens the same passions in his wife's heart. Mrs. Boulte hates
Mrs. Vansuythen because she has taken Ted from her, and, in some curious
fashion, hates her because Mrs. Vansuythen--and here the wife's eyes see
far more clearly than the husband's--detests Ted. And Ted--that gallant
captain and honorable man--knows now that it is possible to hate a woman
once loved, to the verge of wishing to silence her forever with blows.
Above all, is he shocked that Mrs. Boulte cannot see the error of her
ways.
Boulte and he go out tiger-shooting together in all friendship. Boulte
has put their relationship on a most satisfactory footing.
"You're a blackguard," he says to Kurrell, "and I've lost any
self-respect I may ever have had; but when you're with me, I can
feel certain that you are not with Mrs. Vansuythen, or making Emma
miserable. "
Kurrell endures anything that Boulte may say to him. Sometimes they are
away for three days together, and then the Major insists upon his
wife going over to sit with Mrs. Boulte; although Mrs. Vansuythen has
repeatedly declared that she prefers her husband's company to any in the
world. From the way in which she clings to him, she would certainly seem
to be speaking the truth.
But of course, as the Major says, "in a little Station we must all be
friendly. "
THE HILL OF ILLUSION
What rendered vain their deep desire?
A God, a God their severance ruled,
And bade between their shores to be
The unplumbed, salt, estranging sea.
--Matthew Arnold.
HE. Tell your jhampanis not to hurry so, dear. They forget I'm fresh
from the Plains.
SHE. Sure proof that I have not been going out with any one. Yes, they
are an untrained crew. Where do we go?
HE. As usual--to the world's end. No, Jakko.
SHE. Have your pony led after you, then. It's a long round.
HE. And for the last time, thank Heaven!
SHE. Do you mean that still? I didn't dare to write to you about
it. . . all these months.
HE. Mean it! I've been shaping my affairs to that end since Autumn. What
makes you speak as though it had occurred to you for the first time?
SHE. I! Oh! I don't know. I've had long enough to think, too.
HE. And you've changed your mind?
SHE. No. You ought to know that I am a miracle of constancy. What are
your--arrangements?
HE. Ours, Sweetheart, please.
SHE. Ours, be it then. My poor boy, how the prickly heat has marked your
forehead! Have you ever tried sulphate of copper in water?
HE. It'll go away in a day or two up here. The arrangements are simple
enough. Tonga in the early morning--reach Kalka at twelve--Umballa at
seven--down, straight by night train, to Bombay, and then the steamer of
the 21st for Rome. That's my idea. The Continent and Sweden--a ten-week
honeymoon.
SHE. Ssh! Don't talk of it in that way. It makes me afraid. Guy, how
long have we two been insane?
HE. Seven months and fourteen days; I forget the odd hours exactly, but
I'll think.
SHE. I only wanted to see if you remembered. Who are those two on the
Blessington Road?
HE. Eabrey and the Penner woman. What do they matter to us? Tell me
everything that you've been doing and saying and thinking.
SHE. Doing little, saying less, and thinking a great deal. I've hardly
been out at all.
Ha. That was wrong of you. You haven't been moping?
SHE. Not very much. Can you wonder that I'm disinclined for amusement?
HE. Frankly, I do. Where was the difficulty?
SHE. In this only. The more people I know and the more I'm known here,
the wider spread will be the news of the crash when it comes.