No More Learning

’ She held one out. ‘That’s a nice pipe, now. ‘Alf a crown,
that one is. ’

I took it. Our fingers touched. No kick, no reaction. The body doesn’t remember. And I
suppose you think I bought the pipe, just for old sake’s sake, to put half a crown in
Elsie’s pocket. But not a bit of it. I didn’t want the thing. I don’t smoke a pipe. I’d merely
been making a pretext to come into the shop. I turned it over in my fingers and then put it
down on the counter.

‘Doesn’t matter, I’ll leave it,’ I said. ‘Give me a small Players’. ’

Had to buy something, after all that fuss. George the second, or maybe the third or fourth,
routed out a packet of Players’, still munching away beneath his moustache. I could see
he was sulky because I’d dragged him away from his tea for nothing. But it seemed too
damn silly to waste half a crown. I cleared out and that was the last I ever saw of Elsie.

I went back to the George and had dinner. Afterwards I went out with some vague idea of
going to the pictures, if they were open, but instead I landed up in one of the big noisy



pubs in the new part of the town. There I ran into a couple of chaps from Staffordshire
who were travelling in hardware, and we got talking about the state of trade, and playing
darts and drinking Guinness. By closing time they were both so boozed that I had to take
them home in a taxi, and I was a bit under the weather myself, and the next morning I
woke up with a worse head than ever.


5


But I had to see the pool at Binfield House.

I felt really bad that morning. The fact was that ever since I struck Lower Binfield I’d
been drinking almost continuously from every opening time to every closing time. The
reason, though it hadn’t occurred to me till this minute, was that really there’d been
nothing else to do. That was all my trip had amounted to so far — three days on the booze.

The same as the other morning, I crawled over to the window and watched the bowler
hats and school caps hustling to and fro. My enemies, I thought. The conquering army
that’s sacked the town and covered the ruins with fag-ends and paper bags. I wondered
why I cared. You think, I dare say, that if it had given me a jolt to find Lower Binfield
swollen into a kind of Dagenham, it was merely because I don’t like to see the earth
getting fuller and country turning into town. But it isn’t that at all. I don’t mind towns
growing, so long as they do grow and don’t merely spread like gravy over a tablecloth. I
know that people have got to have somewhere to live, and that if a factory isn’t in one
place it’ll be in another. As for the picturesqueness, the sham countrified stuff, the oak
panels and pewter dishes and copper warming-pans and what- not, it merely gives me the
sick. Whatever we were in the old days, we weren’t picturesque. Mother would never
have seen any sense in the antiques that Wendy had filled our house with. She didn’t like
gateleg tables — she said they ‘caught your legs’. As for pewter, she wouldn’t have it in
the house. ‘Nasty greasy stuff, she called it. And yet, say what you like, there was
something that we had in those days and haven’t got now, something that you probably
can’t have in a streamlined milk-bar with the radio playing. I’d come back to look for it,



and I hadn’t found it. And yet somehow I half believe in it even now, when I hadn’t yet
got my teeth in and my belly was crying out for an aspirin and a cup of tea.

And that started me thinking again about the pool at Binficld House. After seeing what
they’d done to the town, I’d had a feeling you could only describe as fear about going to
see whether the pool still existed. And yet it might, there was no knowing. The town was
smothered under red brick, our house was full of Wendy and her junk, the Thames was
poisoned with motor-oil and paper bags. But maybe the pool was still there, with the
great black fish still cruising round it. Maybe, even, it was still hidden in the woods and
from that day to this no one had discovered it existed. It was quite possible. It was a very
thick bit of wood, full of brambles and rotten brushwood (the beech trees gave way to
oaks round about there, which made the undergrowth thicker), the kind of place most
people don’t care to penetrate. Queerer things have happened.

I didn’t start out till late afternoon. It must have been about half past four when I took the
car out and drove on to the Upper Binfield road. Half-way up the hill the houses thinned
out and stopped and the beech trees began. The road forks about there and I took the
right-hand fork, meaning to make a detour round and come back to Binfield House on the
road. But presently I stopped to have a look at the copse I was driving through. The beech
trees seemed just the same. Lord, how they were the same! I backed the car on to a bit of
grass beside the road, under a fall of chalk, and got out and walked. Just the same. The
same stillness, the same great beds of rustling leaves that seem to go on from year to year
without rotting. Not a creature stirring except the small birds in the tree-tops which you
couldn’t see. It wasn’t easy to believe that that great noisy mess of a town was barely
three miles away. I began to make my way through the little copse, in the direction of
Binfield House. I could vaguely remember how the paths went. And Lord! Yes! The
same chalk hollow where the Black Hand went and had catapult shots, and Sid
Lovegrove told us how babies were born, the day I caught my first fish, pretty near forty
years ago!

As the trees thinned out again you could see the other road and the wall of Binfield
House. The old rotting wooden fence was gone, of course, and they’d put up a high brick
wall with spikes on top, such as you’d expect to see round a loony-bin. I’d puzzled for
some time about how to get into Binfield House until finally it had struck me that I’d



only to tell them my wife was mad and I was looking for somewhere to put her. After that
they’d be quite ready to show me round the grounds. In my new suit I probably looked
prosperous enough to have a wife in a private asylum. It wasn’t till I was actually at the
gate that it occurred to me to wonder whether the pool was still inside the grounds.

The old grounds of Binfield House had covered fifty acres, I suppose, and the grounds of
the loony-bin weren’t likely to be more than five or ten. They wouldn’t want a great pool
of water for the loonies to drown themselves in. The lodge, where old Hodges used to
live, was the same as ever, but the yellow brick wall and the huge iron gates were new.
From the glimpse I got through the gates I wouldn’t have known the place. Gravel walks,
flower-beds, lawns, and a few aimless-looking types wandering about — loonies, I
suppose. I strolled up the road to the right. The pool — the big pool, the one where I used
to fish — was a couple of hundred yards behind the house. It might have been a hundred
yards before I got to the corner of the wall. So the pool was outside the grounds. The
trees seemed to have got much thinner. I could hear children’s voices. And Gosh! there
was the pool.

I stood for a moment, wondering what had happened to it. Then I saw what it was — all
the trees were gone from round its edge. It looked all bare and different, in fact it looked
extraordinarily like the Round Pond in Kensington Gardens. Kids were playing all round
the edge, sailing boats and paddling, and a few rather older kids were rushing about in
those little canoes which you work by turning a handle. Over to the left, where the old
rotting boat- house used to stand among the reeds, there was a sort of pavilion and a
sweet kiosk, and a huge white notice saying UPPER BINFIELD MODEL YACHT
CLUB.

I looked over to the right. It was all houses, houses, houses. One might as well have been
in the outer suburbs. All the woods that used to grow beyond the pool, and grew so thick
that they were like a kind of tropical jungle, had been shaved flat. Only a few clumps of
trees still standing round the houses. There were arty- looking houses, another of those
sham-Tudor colonies like the one I’d seen the first day at the top of Chamford Hill, only
more so. What a fool I’d been to imagine that these woods were still the same! I saw how
it was. There was just the one tiny bit of copse, half a dozen acres perhaps, that hadn’t
been cut down, and it was pure chance that I’d walked through it on my way here. Upper



Binfield, which had been merely a name in the old days, had grown into a decent-sized
town. In fact it was merely an outlying chu nk of Lower Binfield.

I wandered up to the edge of the pool. The kids were splashing about and making the
devil of a noise. There seemed to be swarms of them. The water looked kind of dead. No
fish in it now. There was a chap standing watching the kids. He was an oldish chap with a
bald head and a few tufts of white hair, and pince-nez and very sunburnt face. There was
something vaguely queer about his appearance. He was wearing shorts and sandals and
one of those celanese shirts open at the neck, I noticed, but what really struck me was the
look in his eye. He had very blue eyes that kind of twinkled at you from behind his
spectacles. I could see that he was one of those old men who’ve never grown up. They’re
always either health-food cra nk s or else they have something to do with the Boy
Scouts — in either case they’re great ones for Nature and the open air. He was looking at
me as if he’d like to speak.

‘Upper Binfield’ s grown a great deal,’ I said.

He twinkled at me.

‘Grown! My dear sir, we never allow Upper Binfield to grow. We pride ourselves on
being rather exceptional people up here, you know. Just a little colony of us all by
ourselves. No interlopers — te-hee! ’

‘I mean compared with before the war,’ I said. ‘I used to live here as a boy. ’

‘Oh-ah. No doubt. That was before my time, of course. But the Upper Binfield Estate is
something rather special in the way of building estates, you know. Quite a little world of
its own. All designed by young Edward Watkin, the architect. You’ve heard of him, of
course. We live in the midst of Nature up here. No connexion with the town down
there’ — he waved a hand in the direction of Lower Binfield — ‘the dark satanic mills — te-
hee! ’

He had a benevolent old chuckle, and a way of wrinkling his face up, like a rabbit.
Immediately, as though I’d asked him, he began telling me all about the Upper Binfield
Estate and young Edward Watkin, the architect, who had such a feeling for the Tudor,



and was such a wonderful fellow at finding genuine Elizabethan beams in old farmhouses
and buying them at ridiculous prices. And such an interesting young fellow, quite the life
and soul of the nudist parties. He repeated a number of times that they were very
exceptional people in Upper B infield, quite different from Lower Binfield, they were
determined to enrich the countryside instead of defiling it (I’m using his own phrase), and
there weren’t any public houses on the estate.

‘They talk of their Garden Cities. But we call Upper Binfield the Woodland City — te-
hee! Nature! ’ He waved a hand at what was left of the trees. ‘The primeval forest
brooding round us. Our young people grow up amid surroundings of natural beauty. We
are nearly all of us enlightened people, of course. Would you credit that three-quarters of
us up here are vegetarians? The local butchers don’t like us at all — te-hee! And some
quite eminent people live here. Miss Helena Thurloe, the novelist — you’ve heard of her,
of course. And Professor Woad, the psychic research worker. Such a poetic character! He
goes wandering out into the woods and the family can’t find him at mealtimes. He says
he’s walking among the fairies. Do you believe in fairies? I admit — te-hee! — I am just a
wee bit sceptical. But his photographs are most convincing. ’

I began to wonder whether he was someone who’d escaped from Binfield House. But no,
he was sane enough, after a fashion. I knew the type. Vegetarianism, simple life, poetry,
nature -worship, roll in the dew before breakfast. I’d met a few of them years ago in
Ealing. He began to show me round the estate. There was nothing left of the woods. It
was all houses, houses — and what houses! Do you know these faked-up Tudor houses
with the curly roofs and the buttresses that don’t buttress anything, and the rock-gardens
with concrete bird-baths and those red plaster elves you can buy at the florists’? You
could see in your mind’s eye the awful gang of food-cranks and spook-hunters and
simple-lifers with 1,000 pounds a year that lived there. Even the pavements were crazy. I
didn’t let him take me far. Some of the houses made me wish I’d got a hand-grenade in
my pocket. I tried to damp him down by asking whether people didn’t object to living so
near the lunatic asylum, but it didn’t have much effect. Finally I stopped and said:

‘There used to be another pool, besides the big one. It can’t be far from here. ’


‘Another pool? Oh, surely not. I don’t think there was ever another pool. ’



‘They may have drained it off,’ I said. ‘It was a pretty deep pool. It would leave a big pit
behind. ’


For the first time he looked a bit uneasy. He rubbed his nose.

‘Oh-ah. Of course, you must understand our life up here is in some ways primitive. The
simple life, you know. We prefer it so. But being so far from the town has its
inconveniences, of course. Some of our sanitary arrangements are not altogether
satisfactory. The dust-cart only calls once a month, I believe. ’

‘You mean they’ve turned the pool into a rubbish-dump? ’

‘Well, there IS something in the nature of a — ’ he shied at the word rubbish-dump. ‘We
have to dispose of tins and so forth, of course. Over there, behind that clump of trees. ’

We went across there. They’d left a few trees to hid it. But yes, there it was. It was my
pool, all right.
They’d drained the water off. It made a great round hole, like an enonnous
well, twenty or thirty feet deep. Already it was half full of tin cans.

I stood looking at the tin cans.

‘It’s a pity they drained it,’ I said. ‘There used to be some big fish in that pool. ’

‘Fish? Oh, I never heard anything about that. Of course we could hardly have a pool of
water here among the houses. The mosquitoes, you know. But it was before my time. ’

‘I suppose these houses have been built a good long time? ’ I said.

‘Oh — ten or fifteen years, I think. ’

‘I used to know this place before the war,’ I said. ‘It was all woods then. There weren’t
any houses except Binfield House. But that little bit of copse over there hasn’t changed. I
walked through it on my way here. ’

‘Ah, that! That is sacrosanct. We have decided never to build in it. It is sacred to the
young people. Nature, you know. ’ He twinkled at me, a kind of roguish look, as if he was
letting me into a little secret: ‘We call it the Pixy Glen. ’



The Pixy Glen. I got rid of him, went back to the car and drove down to Lower Binfield.
The Pixy Glen. And they’d filled my pool up with tin cans. God rot them and bust them!
Say what you like — call it silly, childish, anything — but doesn’t it make you puke
sometimes to see what they’re doing to England, with their bird- baths and their plaster
gnomes, and their pixies and tin cans, where the beech woods used to be?

Sentimental, you say? Anti-social? Oughtn’t to prefer trees to men? I say it depends what
trees and what men. Not that there’s anything one can do about it, except to wish them
the pox in their guts.

One thing, I thought as I drove down the hill. I’m finished with this notion of getting
back into the past. What’s the good of trying to revisit the scenes of your boyhood? They
don’t exist. Coming up for air! But there isn’t any air. The dustbin that we’re in reaches
up to the stratosphere. All the same, I didn’t particularly care. After all, I thought, I’ve
still got three days left. I’d have a bit of peace and quiet, and stop bothering about what
they’d done to Lower Binfield. As for my idea of going fishing — that was off, of course.
Fishing, indeed! At my age! Really, Hilda was right.

I dumped the car in the garage of the George and walked into the lounge. It was six
o’clock. Somebody had switched on the wireless and the news-broadcast was beginning.
I came through the door just in time to hear the last few words of an S. O. S. And it gave
me a bit of a jolt, I admit. For the words I heard were:

‘ — where his wife, Hilda Bowling, is seriously ill. ’

The next instant the plummy voice went on: ‘Here is another S. O. S. Will Percival Chute,
who was last heard of — ’, but I didn’t wait to hear any more. I just walked straight on.
What made me feel rather proud, when I thought it over afterwards, was that when I
heard those words come out of the loudspeaker I never turned an eyelash. Not even a
pause in my step to let anyone know that I was George Bowling, whose wife Hilda
Bowling was seriously ill. The landlord’s wife was in the lounge, and she knew my name
was Bowling, at any rate she’d seen it in the register. Otherwise there was nobody there
except a couple of chaps who were staying at the George and who didn’t know me from
Adam. But I kept my head. Not a sign to anyone. I merely walked on into the private bar,
which had just opened, and ordered my pint as usual.



I had to think it over. By the time I’d drunk about half the pint I began to get the bearings
of the situation. In the first place, Hilda WASN’T ill, seriously or otherwise. I knew that.
She’d been perfectly well when I came away, and it wasn’t the time of the year for ‘flu or
anything of that kind. She was shamming. Why?

Obviously it was just another of her dodges. I saw how it was. She’d got wind
somehow — trust Hilda! — that I wasn’t really at Birmingham, and this was just her way of
getting me home. Couldn’t bear to think of me any longer with that other woman.
Because of course she’d take it for granted that I was with a woman. Can’t imagine any
other motive. And naturally she assumed that I’d come rushing home as soon as I heard
she was ill.

But that’s just where you’ve got it wrong, I thought to myself as I finished off the pint.
I’m too cute to be caught that way. I remembered the dodges she’d pulled before, and the
extraordinary trouble she’ll take to catch me out. I’ve even known her, when I’d been on
some journey she was suspicious about, check it all up with a Bradshaw and a road-map,
just to see whether I was telling the truth about my movements. And then there was that
time when she followed me all the way to Colchester and suddenly burst in on me at the
Temperance Hotel. And that time, unfortunately, she happened to be right — at least, she
wasn’t, but there were circumstances which made it look as if she was. I hadn’t the
slightest belief that she was ill. In fact, I knew she wasn’t, although I couldn’t say exactly
how.

I had another pint and things looked better. Of course there was a row coming when I got
home, but there’d have been a row anyway. I’ve got three good days ahead of me, I
thought. Curiously enough, now that the things I’d come to look for had turned out not to
exist, the idea of having a bit of holiday appealed to me all the more. Being away from
home — that was the great thing. Peace perfect peace with loved ones far away, as the
hymn puts it. And suddenly I decided that I WOULD have a woman if I felt like it. It
would serve Hilda right for being so dirty-minded, and besides, where’s the sense of
being suspected if it isn’t true?


But as the second pint worked inside me, the thing began to amuse me. I hadn’t fallen for
it, but it was damned ingenious all the same. I wondered how she’d managed about the



S. O. S. I’ve no idea what the procedure is. Do you have to have a doctor’s certificate, or
do you just send your name in? I felt pretty sure it was the Wheeler woman who’d put her
up to it. It seemed to me to have the Wheeler touch.

But all the same, the cheek of it! The lengths that women will go! Sometimes you can’t
help kind of admiring them.


6

After breakfast I strolled out into the market-place. It was a lovely morning, kind of cool
and still, with a pale yellow light like white wine playing over everything. The fresh
smell of the morning was mixed up with the smell of my cigar. But there was a zooming
noise from behind the houses, and suddenly a fleet of great black bombers came whizzing
over. I looked up at them. They seemed to be bang overhead.

The next moment I heard something. And at the same moment, if you’d happened to be
there, you’d have seen an interesting instance of what I believe is called conditioned
reflex. Because what I’d heard — there wasn’t any question of mistake — was the whistle
of a bomb. I hadn’t heard such a thing for twenty years, but I didn’t need to be told what
it was. And without taking any kind of thought I did the right thing. I flung myself on my
face.

After all I’m glad you didn’t see me. I don’t suppose I looked dignified. I was flattened
out on the pavement like a rat when it squeezes under a door. Nobody else had been half
as prompt. I’d acted so quickly that in the split second while the bomb was whistling
down I even had time to be afraid that it was all a mistake and I’d made a fool of myself
for nothing.

But the next moment — ah!


BOOM-BRRRRR!



A noise like the Day of Judgment, and then a noise like a ton of coal falling on to a sheet
of tin. That was falling bricks. I seemed to kind of melt into the pavement. ‘It’s started,’ I
thought. ‘I knew it! Old Hitler didn’t wait. Just sent his bombers across without warning. ’

And yet here’s a peculiar thing. Even in the echo of that awful, deafening crash, which
seemed to freeze me up from top to toe, I had time to think that there’s something grand
about the bursting of a big projectile. What does it sound like? It’s hard to say, because
what you hear is mixed up with what you’re frightened of. Mainly it gives you a vision of
bursting metal. You seem to see great sheets of iron bursting open. But the peculiar thing
is the feeling it gives you of being suddenly shoved up against reality. It’s like being
woken up by somebody shying a bucket of water over you. You’re suddenly dragged out
of your dreams by a clang of bursting metal, and it’s terrible, and it’s real.

There was a sound of screams and yells, and also of car brakes being suddenly jammed
on. The second bomb which I was waiting for didn’t fall. I raised my head a little. On
every side people seemed to be rushing round and screaming. A car was skidding
diagonally across the road, I could hear a woman’s voice shrieking, ‘The Germans! The
Germans! ’ To the right I had a vague impression of a man’s round white face, rather like
a wrinkled paper bag, looking down at me. He was kind of dithering:

‘What is it? What’s happened? What are they doing? ’

‘It’s started,’ I said. ‘That was a bomb. Lie down. ’

But still the second bomb didn’t fall. Another quarter of a minute or so, and I raised my
head again. Some of the people were still rushing about, others were standing as if they’d
been glued to the ground. From somewhere behind the houses a huge haze of dust had
risen up, and through it a black jet of smoke was streaming upwards. And then I saw an
extraordinary sight. At the other end of the market-place the High Street rises a little. And
down this little hill a herd of pigs was galloping, a sort of huge flood of pig-faces. The
next moment, of course, I saw what it was. It wasn’t pigs at all, it was only the
schoolchildren in their gas- masks. I suppose they were bolting for some cellar where
they’d been told to take cover in case of air-raids. At the back of them I could even make
out a taller pig who was probably Miss Todgers. But I tell you for a moment they looked
exactly like a herd of pigs.



I picked myself up and walked across the market-place. People were calming down
already, and quite a little crowd had begun to flock towards the place where the bomb
had dropped.

Oh, yes, you’re right, of course. It wasn’t a German aeroplane after all. The war hadn’t
broken out. It was only an accident. The planes were flying over to do a bit of bombing
practice — at any rate they were carrying bombs — and somebody had put his hands on the
lever by mistake. I expect he got a good ticking off for it. By the time that the postmaster
had rung up London to ask whether there was a war on, and been told that there wasn’t,
everyone had grasped that it was an accident. But there’d been a space of time, something
between a minute and five minutes, when several thousand people believed we were at
war. A good job it didn’t last any longer. Another quarter of an hour and we’d have been
lynching our first spy.

I followed the crowd. The bomb had dropped in a little side-street off the High Street, the
one where Uncle Ezekiel used to have his shop. It wasn’t fifty yards from where the shop
used to be. As I came round the comer I could hear voices murmuring ‘Oo-oo! ’ — a kind
of awed noise, as if they were frightened and getting a big kick out of it. Luckily I got
there a few minutes before the ambulance and the fire-engine, and in spite of the fifty
people or so that had already collected I saw everything.

At first sight it looked as if the sky had been raining bricks and vegetables. There were
cabbage leaves everywhere. The bomb had blown a greengrocer’s shop out of existence.
The house to the right of it had part of its roof blown off, and the roof beams were on fire,
and all the houses round had been more or less damaged and had their windows smashed.
But what everyone was looking at was the house on the left. Its wall, the one that joined
the greengrocer’s shop, was ripped off as neatly as if someone had done it with a knife.
And what was extraordinary was that in the upstairs rooms nothing had been touched. It
was just like looking into a doll’s house. Chests-of-drawers, bedroom chairs, faded
wallpaper, a bed not yet made, and a jerry under the bed — all exactly as it had been lived
in, except that one wall was gone. But the lower rooms had caught the force of the
explosion.