No More Learning

‘We’d better get hold of a
taxi,’ he said, looking up and down the street.

There seemed to be no taxis about, however. The people were streaming noisily out of
the pub, which was on the point of closing. Gordon felt better in the open air. His brain
had never been clearer. The red satanic gleam of a Neon light, somewhere in the distance,
put a new and brilliant idea into his head. He plucked at Ravelston’s arm.


‘Ravelston! I say, Ravelston! ’



‘What? ’


‘Let’s pick up a couple of tarts. ’

In spite of Gordon’s drunken state, Ravelston was scandalized. ‘My dear old chap! You
can’t do that kind of thing. ’

‘Don’t be so damned upper-class. Why not? ’

‘But how could you, dash it! After you’ve just said good night to Rosemary — a really
charming girl like that! ’

‘At night all cats are grey,’ said Gordon, with the feeling that he voiced a profound and
cynical wisdom.

Ravelston decided to ignore this remark. ‘We’d better walk up to Piccadilly Circus,’ he
said. ‘There’ll be plenty of taxis there. ’

The theatres were emptying. Crowds of people and streams of cars flowed to and fro in
the frightful corpse-light. Gordon’s brain was marvellously clear. He knew what folly and
evil he had committed and was about to commit. And yet after all it hardly seemed to
matter. He saw as something far, far away, like something seen through the wrong end of
the telescope, his thirty years, his wasted life, the blank future, Julia’s five pounds,
Rosemary. He said with a sort of philosophic interest:

‘Look at the Neon lights! Look at those awful blue ones over the rubber shop. When I see
those lights I know that I’m a damned soul. ’

‘Quite,’ said Ravelston, who was not listening. ‘Ah, there’s a taxi! ’ He signalled. ‘Damn!
He didn’t see me. Wait here a second. ’

He left Gordon by the Tube station and hurried across the street. For a little while
Gordon’s mind receded into blankness. Then he was aware of two hard yet youthful
faces, like the faces of young predatory animals, that had come close up to his own. They
had blackened eye-brows and hats that were like vulgarer versions of Rosemary’s. He



was exchanging badinage with them. This seemed to him to have been going on for
several minutes.

‘Hullo, Dora! Hullo, Barbara! (He knew their names, it seemed. ) And how are you? And
how’s old England’s winding-sheet? ’

‘Oo — haven’t you got a cheek, just! ’

‘And what are you up to at this time of night? ’

‘Oo — jes’ strolling around. ’

‘Like a lion, seeking whom he may devour? ’

‘Oo — you haven’t half got a cheek! Hasn’t he got a cheek, Barbara? You HAVE got a
cheek! ’

Ravelston had caught the taxi and brought it round to where Gordon was standing. He
stepped out, saw Gordon between the two girls, and stood aghast.

‘Gordon! Oh, my God! What the devil have you been doing? ’

‘Let me introduce you. Dora and Barbara,’ said Gordon.

For a moment Ravelston looked almost angry. As a matter of fact, Ravelston was
incapable of being properly angry. Upset, pained, embarrassed — yes; but not angry. He
stepped forward with a miserable effort not to notice the two girls’ existence. Once he
noticed them the game was up. He took Gordon by the arm and would have bundled him
into the taxi.

‘Come on, Gordon, for God’s sake! Here’s the taxi. We’ll go straight home and put you
to bed. ’

Dora caught Gordon’s other arm and hauled him out of reach as though he had been a
stolen handbag.


‘What bloody business is it of yours? ’ she cried ferociously.



‘You don’t want to insult these two ladies, I hope? ’ said Gordon.


Ravelston faltered, stepped back, rubbed his nose. It was a moment to be Finn; but
Ravelston had never in his life been firm. He looked from Dora to Gordon, from Gordon
to Barbara. That was fatal. Once he had looked them in the face he was lost. Oh, God!
What could he do? They were human beings — he couldn’t insult them. The same instinct
that sent his hand into his pocket at the very sight of a beggar made him helpless at this
moment. The poor, wretched girls! He hadn’t the heart to send them packing into the
night. Suddenly he realized that he would have to go through with this abominable
adventure into which Gordon had led him. For the first time in his life he was let in for
going home with a tart.

‘But dash it all! ’ he said feebly.

‘Allons-y,’ said Gordon.

The taximan had taken his direction at a nod from Dora. Gordon slumped into the corner
seat and seemed immediately to sink into some immense abyss from which he rose again
more gradually and with only partial consciousness of what he had been doing. He was
gliding smoothly through darkness starred with lights. Or were the lights moving and he
stationary? It was like being on the ocean bottom, among the luminous, gliding fishes.
The fancy returned to him that he was a damned soul in hell. The landscape in hell would
be just like this. Ravines of cold evil-coloured fire, with darkness all above. But in hell
there would be tonnent. Was this torment? He strove to classify his sensations. The
momentary lapse into unconsciousness had left him weak, sick, shaken; his forehead
seemed to be splitting. He put out a hand. It encountered a knee, a garter, and a small soft
hand which sought mechanically for his. He became aware that Ravelston, sitting
opposite, was tapping his toe urgently and nervously.

‘Gordon! Gordon! Wake up! ’

‘What? ’

‘Gordon! Oh, damn! Causons en francais. Qu’est-ce que tu as fait? Crois-tu que je veux
coucher avec une sale — oh, damnation! ’



‘Oo-parley-voo francey! ’ squealed the girls.


Gordon was mildly amused. Do Ravelston good, he thought. A parlour Socialist going
home with a tart! The first genuinely proletarian action of his life. As though aware of
this thought, Ravelston subsided into his comer in silent misery, sitting as far away from
Barbara as possible. The taxi drew up at a hotel in a side-street; a dreadful, shoddy, low
place it was. The ‘hotel’ sign over the door looked skew-eyed. The windows were almost
dark, but the sound of singing, boozy and dreary, trickled from within. Gordon staggered
out of the taxi and felt for Dora’s arm. Give us a hand, Dora. Mind the step. What ho!

A smallish, darkish, smelly hallway, lino-carpeted, mean, uncared-for, and somehow
impermanent. From a room somewhere on the left the singing swelled, mournful as a
church organ. A cross-eyed, evil-looking chambermaid appeared from nowhere. She and
Dora seemed to know one another. What a mug! No competition there. From the room on
the left a single voice took up the song with would-be facetious emphasis:

‘The man that kisses a pretty girl And goes and tells his mother, Ought to have his lips
cut off, Ought to — ’

It tailed away, full of the ineffable, undisguisable sadness of debauchery. A very young
voice it sounded. The voice of some poor boy who in his heart only wanted to be at home
with his mother and sisters, playing hunt-the-slipper. There was a party of young fools in
there, on the razzle with whisky and girls. The tune reminded Gordon. He turned to
Ravelston as he came in, Barbara following.

‘Where’s my Chianti? ’ he said.

Ravelston gave him the bottle. His face looked pale, harassed, hunted, almost. With
guilty restless movements he kept himself apart from Barbara. He could not touch her or
even look at her, and yet to escape was beyond him. His eyes sought Gordon’s. ‘For the
love of God can’t we get out of it somehow? ’ they signalled. Gordon frowned at him.
Stick it out! No flinching! He took Dora’s ann again. Come on, Dora! Now for those
stairs. Ah! Wait a moment.



Her arm round his waist, supporting him, Dora drew him aside. Down the darkish, smelly
stairs a young woman came mincingly, buttoning on a glove; after her a bald, middle-
aged man in evening clothes, black overcoat, and white silk muffler, his opera hat in his
hand. He walked past them with small mean mouth tightened, pretending not to see them.
A family man, by the guilty look in his eye. Gordon watched the gaslight gleam on the
back of his bald head. His predecessor. In the same bed, probably. The mantle of Elisha.
Now then, Dora, up we go! Ah, these stairs! Difficilis ascensus Averni. That’s right, here
we are! ‘Mind the step,’ said Dora. They were on the landing. Black and white lino like a
chessboard. White-painted doors. A smell of slops and a fainter smell of stale linen.

We this way, you that. At the other door Ravelston halted, his fingers on the handle. He
could not — no, he COULD not do it. He could not enter that dreadful room. For the last
time his eyes, like those of a dog about to be whipped, turned upon Gordon. ‘Must I,
must I? ’ his eyes said. Gordon eyed him sternly. Stick it out, Regulus! March to your
doom! Atqui sciebat quae sibi Barbara. It is a far, far more proletarian thing that you do.
And then with startling suddenness Ravelston’ s face cleared. An expression of relief,
almost of joy, stole over it. A wonderful thought had occurred to him. After all, you could
always pay the girl without actually doing anything! Thank God! He set his shoulders,
plucked up courage, went in. The door shut.

So here we are. A mean, dreadful room. Lino on the floor, gas-fire, huge double bed with
sheets vaguely dingy. Over the bed a framed coloured picture from La Vie Parisienne. A
mistake, that.
Sometimes the originals don’t compare so well. And, by Jove! on the
bamboo table by the window, positively an aspidistra! Hast thou found me, O mine
enemy? But come here, Dora. Let’s have a look at you.

He seemed to be lying on the bed. He could not see very well. Her youthful, rapacious
face, with blackened eyebrows, leaned over him as he sprawled there.

‘How about my present? ’ she demanded, half wheedling, half menacing.

Never mind that now. To work! Come here. Not a bad mouth. Come here. Come closer.
Ah!



No. No use. Impossible. The will but not the way. The spirit is willing but the flesh is
weak. Try again. No. The booze, it must be. See Macbeth. One last try. No, no use. Not
this evening. I’m afraid.

All right, Dora, don’t you worry. You’ll get your two quid all right. We aren’t paying by
results.

He made a clumsy gesture. ‘Here, give us that bottle. That bottle off the dressing-table. ’

Dora brought it. Ah, that’s better. That at least doesn’t fail. With hands that had swollen
to monstrous size he up-ended the Chianti bottle. The wine flowed down his throat, bitter
and choking, and some of it went up his nose. It overwhelmed him. He was slipping,
sliding, falling off the bed. His head met the floor. His legs were still on the bed. For a
while he lay in this position. Is this the way to live? Down below the youthful voices
were still mournfully singing:

‘For tonight we’ll merry be, For tonight we’ll merry be, For tonight we’ll merry be-e-e —
Tomorrow we’ll be so-ober! ’


Chapter 9

And, by Jove, tomorrow we WERE sober!

Gordon emerged from some long, sickly dream to the consciousness that the books in the
lending library were the wrong way up. They were all lying on their sides. Moreover, for
some reason their backs had turned white — white and shiny, like porcelain.

He opened his eyes a little wider and moved an arm. Small rivulets of pain, seemingly
touched off by the movement, shot through his body at unexpected places — down the
calves of his legs, for instance, and up both sides of his head. He perceived that he was
lying on his side, with a hard smooth pillow under his cheek and a coarse blanket
scratching his chin and pushing its hairs into his mouth. Apart from the minor pains that



stabbed him every time he moved, there was a large, dull sort of pain which was not
localized but which seemed to hover all over him.

Suddenly he flung off the blanket and sat up. He was in a police cell. At this moment a
frightful spasm of nausea overcame him. Dimly perceiving a W. C. in the comer, he crept
towards it and was violently sick, three or four times.

After that, for several minutes, he was in agonizing pain. He could scarcely stand on his
feet, his head throbbed as though it were going to burst, and the light seemed like some
scalding white liquid pouring into his brain through the sockets of his eyes. He sat on the
bed holding his head between his hands. Presently, when some of the throbbing had died
down, he had another look about him. The cell measured about twelve feet long by six
wide and was very high. The walls were all of white porcelain bricks, horribly white and
clean. He wondered dully how they cleaned as high up as the ceiling. Perhaps with a
hose, he reflected. At one end there was a little barred window, very high up, and at the
other end, over the door, an electric bulb let into the wall and protected by a stout grating.
The thing he was sitting on was not actually a bed, but a shelf with one blanket and a
canvas pillow. The door was of steel, painted green. In the door there was a little round
hole with a flap on the outside.

Having seen this much he lay down and pulled the blanket over him again. He had no
further curiosity about his surroundings. As to what had happened last night, he
remembered everything — at least, he remembered everything up to the time when he had
gone with Dora into the room with the aspidistra. God knew what had happened after
that. There had been some kind of bust-up and he had landed in the clink. He had no
notion of what he had done; it might be murder for all he kn ew. In any case he did not
care. He turned his face to the wall and pulled the blanket over his head to shut out the
light.

After a long time the spyhole in the door was pushed aside. Gordon managed to turn his
head round. His neck-muscles seemed to creak. Through the spyhole he could see a blue
eye and a semi-circle of pink chubby cheek.


“Ja do with a cup of tea? ’ a voice said.



Gordon sat up and instantly felt very sick again. He took his head between his hands and
groaned. The thought of a cup of hot tea appealed to him, but he knew it would make him
sick if it had sugar in it.

‘Please,’ he said.

The police constable opened a partition in the top half of the door and passed in a thick
white mug of tea. It had sugar in it. The constable was a solid rosy young man of about
twenty-five, with a kind face, white eyelashes, and a tremendous chest. It reminded
Gordon of the chest of a carthorse. He spoke with a good accent but with vulgar turns of
speech. For a minute or so he stood regarding Gordon.

‘You weren’t half bad last night,’ he said finally.

‘I’m bad now. ’

‘You was worse last night, though. What you go and hit the sergeant for? ’

‘Did I hit the sergeant? ’

‘Did you? Coo! He wasn’t half wild. He turns to me and he says — holding his ear he
was, like this — he says, “Now, if that man wasn’t too drunk to stand, I’d knock his block
off. ” It’s all gone down on your charge sheet. Drunk and disorderly. You’d only ha’ bin
drunk and incapable if you hadn’t of hit the sergeant. ’

‘Do you know what I shall get for this? ’

‘Five quid or fourteen days. You’ll go up before Mr Groom. Lucky for you it wasn’t Mr
Walker. He’d give you a month without the option, Mr Walker would. Very severe on the
drunks he is. Teetotaller. ’

Gordon had drunk some of the tea. It was nauseatingly sweet but its wannth made him
feel stronger. He gulped it down. At this moment a nasty, snarling sort of voice — the
sergeant whom Gordon had hit, no doubt — yelped from somewhere outside:

‘Take that man out and get him washed. Black Maria leaves at half past nine. ’



The constable hastened to open the cell door. As soon as Gordon stepped outside he felt
worse then ever. This was partly because it was much colder in the passage than in the
cell. He walked a step or two, and then suddenly his head was going round and round.
‘I’m going to be sick! ’ he cried. He was falling — he flung out a hand and stopped himself
against the wall. The constable’s strong arm went round him. Across the ann, as over a
rail, Gordon sagged, doubled up and limp. A jet of vomit burst from him. It was the tea,
of course. There was a gutter running along the stone floor. At the end of the passage the
moustachio’d sergeant, in tunic without a belt, stood with his hand on his hip, looking on
disgustedly.

‘Dirty little tyke,’ he muttered, and turned away.

‘Come on, old chap,’ said the constable. ‘You’ll be better in half a mo’. ’

He half led, half dragged Gordon to a big stone sink at the end of the passage and helped
him to strip to the waist. His gentleness was astonishing. He handled Gordon almost like
a nurse handling a child. Gordon had recovered enough strength to sluice himself with
the ice-cold water and rinse his mouth out. The constable gave him a torn towel to dry
himself with and then led him back to the cell.

‘Now you sit quiet till the Black Maria comes. And take my tip — when you go up to the
court, you plead guilty and say you won’t do it again. Mr Groom won’t be hard on you. ’

‘Where are my collar and tie? ’ said Gordon.

‘We took ‘em away last night. You’ll get ‘em back before you go up to court. We had a
bloke hung himself with his tie, once. ’

Gordon sat down on the bed. For a little while he occupied himself by calculating the
number of porcelain bricks in the walls, then sat with his elbows on his knees, his head
between his hands. He was still aching all over; he felt weak, cold, jaded, and, above all,
bored. He wished that boring business of going up to the court could be avoided
somehow. The thought of being put into some jolting vehicle and taken across London to
hang about in chilly cells and passages, and of having to answer questions and be lectured
by magistrates, bored him indescribably. All he wanted was to be left alone. But



presently there was the sound of several voices farther down the passage, and then of feet
approaching. The partition in the door was opened.

‘Couple of visitors for you,’ the constable said.

Gordon was bored by the very thought of visitors. Unwillingly he looked up, and saw
Flaxman and Ravelston looking in upon him. How they had got there together was a
mystery, but Gordon felt not the faintest curiosity about it. They bored him. He wished
they would go away.

‘Hullo, chappie! ’ said Flaxman.

‘YOU here? ’ said Gordon with a sort of weary offensiveness.

Ravelston looked miserable. He had been up since the very early morning, looking for
Gordon. This was the first time he had seen the interior of a police cell. His face shrank
with disgust as he looked at the chilly white-tiled place with its shameless W. C. in the
comer. But Flaxman was more accustomed to this kind of thing. He cocked a practised
eye at Gordon.

‘I’ve seen ‘em worse,’ he said cheerfully. ‘Give him a prairie oyster and he’d buck up
something wonderful. D’you know what your eyes look like, chappie? ’ he added to
Gordon. ‘They look as if they’d been taken out and poached. ’

‘I was drunk last night,’ said Gordon, his head between his hands.

‘I gathered something of the kind, old chappie. ’

‘Look here, Gordon,’ said Ravelston, ‘we came to bail you out, but it seems we’re too
late. They’re taking you up to court in a few minutes’ time. This is a bloody show. It’s a
pity you didn’t give them a false name when they brought you here last night. ’

‘Did I tell them my name? ’


‘You told them everything. I wish to God I hadn’t let you out of my sight. You slipped
out of that house somehow and into the street. ’



‘Wandering up and down Shaftesbury Avenue, drinking out of a bottle,’ said Flaxman
appreciatively. ‘But you oughtn’t to have hit the sergeant, old chappie! That was a bit of
bloody foolishness. And I don’t mind telling you Mother Wisbeach is on your track.
When your pal here came round this morning and told her you’d been for a night on the
tiles, she took on as if you’d done a bloody murder. ’

‘And look here, Gordon,’ said Ravelston.

There was the familiar note of discomfort in his face. It was something about money, as
usual.