Blandford
was
seated by their little fire, conversing with
Mrs.
seated by their little fire, conversing with
Mrs.
Childrens - Roses and Emily
" Delighted.
to have the pro-
hibition removed, she began in a low
voice--" Here is a heart's ease, Emily,.
that's for you; and here is one for. my-
self too" "Why is heart's ease foij
Emily and you? " said her mother smiling. ,
"Because," she replied, " we are both so
happy > she is happy to get well, and I am
happy to see her so*. Then she is. happy
to have such a good papa, and I am happy
in having such a dear mamma--so heart's
ease must belong to us," "What is next,
my little moralizer? " said Mrs. Sydney.
"The next ia a beautiful lily, so fair and
upright, that I think it is like Isabel. '*
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*' And what have you ? for me V* asked
her mother. "Nothing mamma--I
could find nothing like yOu--I looked
every where; but there was nothing I
could fancy except this balm, and that is
not pretty enough; yet I heard Mr.
Price say you poured balm into every
body's bpsom. " Mrs. Sydney caught
the little prattler to her heart, and bade
her go on. "I have but one more that
has meaning in it," she said, " and that
is a rose, my ownself-->>. tb. e last that re-
mained upon the tree--the youngest you
know. Phcebe brought methemallto day;
but under the flowers is something else--
a*huneh of grapes for dear Emily. Phoebe
knew I liked grapes, so . she gave them to
me; but when I said poor Family was ill,.
and. I had rather she should h#ve them
than I, Phcebe told me. 1 might part with
them to her, if I chose, but she hoped I
would not forget she gave them to me;
and that I would love her for it. I said
I would, and so I do, better, ah! tea
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times better, than if she had insisted on
my eating them myself. "
When she had ended this rhapsody of
fancy and affection, to which Emily had
listened in placid silence, her mother,
smiling, told her she found she had not for-
gotten the fables of Flora; a beautiful cot-
lection by Dr. Langhorne, in which the
properties and feelings of persons are ap-
plied to flowers. She replied, " No
mamma; but it was the playyou read to us.
last night that made me think of this--
I thought how I should have liked to
have been Perdita, and presented the
flowers as she did. "
The judicious treatment of Mr Price,.
and the tender nursing of Mrs. Sydney,
soon restored Emily to health. Mr. .
Blandford considered her as the preser-
ver of his child, and was unbounded in
his expressions of gratitude; whilst
Emily, on her part, clung to her with the
fondest affection.
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CHAP. VII.
The summer was now passed; and the
? uncertain state of Mrs. Sydney s health
had prevented her commencing the plan
she had proposed for the support of her-
self and children. She still lingered on
the spot so many years the seat of all her
happiness, and thought with anguish on
the moment when necessity would. oblige
her to quit it. She had no near relations
to whom she could apply for assistance -T
some distant ones had the power, and
probably might have the will to. serve
her; but she knew how reluctantly the
hand opens to the relief of such as solicit
its aid; how chilling are the good wishes
"that accompany a gift requested, and she
. shrunk'from. the mortification. of a bene-
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fit that would at most but procrastinate,
not prevent, the hour of her departure.
The lengthened evenings of autumn,
unenlivened by social intercourse, were
tedious and unpleasant to Mr. Bland-
ford, and he secretly wished again
to change the scene. As his seclusion
from society was the effect of a trifling
disappointment, the sense of which time
had, in some degree, worn away; so
his desire to. return to it, originated in
the same caprice.
Alas, poor Emily! what will be thy
fete, with a parent so uncertain in his
own steps, so unfit to direct thine! Yet
Mr. Blandford's heart was the seat of
many noble virtues. In the exercise of
benevolence and charity he often dis-
played firmness and perseverance. The
eye of sorrow was never lifted up to hiin
in vain, nor did he turn away from the
voice of the mourner. These appeals
to him were so certain of exciting
his sympathy, that the semblance of
misery was often borrowed, the tale
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of woe often fabricated, and he became
the dupe of the designing. A discovery
of such impositions never failed to pro-
duce those feelings of misanthropy which
led him for a time to shun society.
Mr. Blandford was an only son; every
gratification that money could purchase,
every indulgence that affection could
grant, was his from infancy to manhood.
Uncontrouled in all his wishes, it was pe-
culiarly fortunate that he possessed a
good disposition, or the most fatal conse-
quences might have ensued. ;
On the death of his parents, he visited
the continent, chiefly residing in Italy,
where he married an English lady of
great beauty and merit; but the same
hour which gave a daughter to his arms,
deprived him ef an amiable wife. To
sooth his affliction, he had again recourse
to travelling, and in change of place and
objects found a temporary alleviation of
his misery; but this plan, at first adopt-
ed as a relief to his mind, became at last
ne. cQss. ary from habit, .
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This unsettled mode of life was ill
adapted to any system of education,
which Emily's age began to render ne-
cessary; he therefore hired a house in
London, with an intention of engaging a
well-informed woman to instruct her;
but unfortunately in the families with
whom he associated on his first arrival in
town, he met with daughters whose edu. -
cation had been shewy and superficial;.
who practised a little of every thing, and
understood nothing; whose manners were
elegant and polished, but when he at-
tempted by conversation to draw forth
the qualities of the mind, he found it
composed of childish trifles, with the
shreds and patches of fashion, and he
turned disgusted from accomplishments
that merely gave a varnish to the exte-
rior of woman.
A prejudice in some minds becomes a
principle of action; and when we are
guided by extremes, we generally lose
the object we aim at. Mr. Blandford
determined to avoid altogether, what he
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conceived to be, t he dangers of education,
and to consign Emily to the care of an
old servant whose fidelity and integrity
had been proved, and whose entire igno-
rance of all "lettered lore," he con-
sidered a recommendation rather than
an' objection. This servant, whose name
was Ruth, was of the meanest birth, un-
couth in her manners, and blunt in her
expressions; but she appeared honest
and undesigning, was really fond of Emily
when she gave her no trouble, and was
obedient to her master.
Mr. Blandford sometimes attempted
to teach his daughter himself, but she.
disliked every species of constraint; and
to be quiet, for even the short time that
the first lessons required, seemed to her
a punishment; to avoid which, she had .
recourse to every little stratagem; her
father found a tear irresistible, a smile
rendered her too endearing, and a fit of
passion made instruction useless ; so. that
lessens were generally relinquished as
soon *s begun, and either caresses de<<
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tained her by his side, or reproofs sent
her back to Ruth.
Whatever were the faults of Emily,
she was less an object of censure than
compassion. No tender mother watched
over her infancy, to correct her errors or
reward her good conduct; and here, let
me remind you, my young readers, who
are blest with parents, of the love and
duty you owe them; they are your guar-
dians in this life, and your guides to the
next. The most devoted affection and
obedience only can repay them for the
care and anxiety with which they at-
tended to your early years, and never let
this debt of gratitude be forgotten.
To your teachers and instructors, those
who patiently lead you up the difficult
ascent of science; who stimulate your
exertions, reward your labours, and re-
prove your errors, be gentle, attentive,
and submissive ; and rejoice that you aro?
not left, like poor Kmily, to the injudi-
cious indulgences, or capricious punish-
ments,. of an ignorant dependents ?
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The desolate situation of Mrs. Sydney
had excited in Mr. Blandford sentiments of
the most respectful compassion, and hav-
ing been instrumental in procuring her a
trifling annuity, afforded him heartfelt
satisfaction; but this, however accept-
able, was in itself so inadequate to the
necessities of a family, that he revolved
in his mind many plans, in order to ren-
der her a more essential benefit, but was
unable to determine upon any. The
single taper that dimly lighted her little
cottage, the frugal fire that scarcely
warmed it, (though in a part of the king-
dom where coalsare cheap,) threwa gloom
over the scene that heightened its misery
and desolation. s '- /'
Isabel, in whatever she was engaged,
displaj'edva cheerfulness, a fortitude, and
an activity, that he had never before seen
consistently combined in a girl of fifteen.
Rose, always affectionate and good hu-
moured, was his little play-thing and de-
light, and the increasing interest, esteem,
and pity which he felt for this family,
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made him reluctant to leave the village
while they were in poverty and sorrow.
The parsonage was still unoccupied, and
as the present curate refused to reside in
so retired a place, it was at the service of
any one who wished to hire it. A spring
and summer's neglect had occasioned
everything around itto grow in wild luxu-
riance; he knew Mrs. Sydney's attach-
ment to the spot, and, could he once
more obtain it for her, he might have the
satisfaction of reflecting that he left her
surrounded by, at least, local comforts;
but how was she to support herself? This
thought suggested another, and no sooner
was it admitted, than he ardently desired
its accomplishment. Would she receive
Emily as her child and pupil--would she
but allow her to share in the lessons of
Rose, he should consider himself fortunate.
He had, for some time,painfully remarked
the rude and unaccommodating manners
of his child; and when he contrasted them
with the playful simplicity and obliging
sweetness of Rose, he felt a pang some-
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thing like self-reproach, and he ardently
wished she could profit by the instruction
of Mrs. Sydney, and the example of her
children. He weighed the whole. plan
in his mind, and resolved to apply for the
parsonage, as a preliminary step to the
proposal he intended to make to Mrs.
Sydney. The application was acceded
to by Dr. Blake, and the village work-
men were instantly ordered to begin the
necessary repairs.
It was one chill evening in the month
of November, when Mr.
Blandford was
seated by their little fire, conversing with
Mrs. Sydney and Isabel, that Rose, who
had been on a visit to Phcebe, hastily
ran into the room with the news that
the parsonage was repairing, and that
somebody must be going to reside in it.
A faint crimson passed across Mrs. Syd-
ney's cheek at this intelligence, and
Isabel's mild eye was instantly suffused
with a tear. After a short pause, she
said--" I am glad of it my child; may
its destined inhabitants be as happy as
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we once were. As for us, we shall sooa
quit the village; I wrote to a person at
B to engage apartments, and her
answer, which I have just received, is
more favourable than I expected. We
shall have two neat rooms on reasonable
terms, and already she has obtained the
promise of a small number ot day pupils.
I have been too long inactive, and must
determine to be so no longer. "
Mr. Blandford ventured to hint at the
uncertainty of her success, and enquired
whether she did not think there might
be some other plan more promising. --
"I know of none," she replied, " and
however uncertain this may be, I must
hope for the best. " "I too am going
from hence," he said, " and have given
my landlord notice that I shall leave his
house this day month--perhaps earlier,'*
** This day month! " repeated Emily,
who was present, and bursting into tears,
covered her face with her hands. "I
shall return to London," replied her
father, " and you know you like town .
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better than the country. " "I might say
so once; but I am sure I don't like it
half so well now. " "And why not? "
"There will be nobody to love me V*
"Shall not I be with you, Emily; and
do not I love you? " "Yes, papa, some-
times; but when you are not with me, I
shall be all alone. " "There is Ruth. "
*' O, papa, Ruth is not Mrs. Sydney. "
"Then you#vould wish to stay with Mrs.
Sydney and leave me? " Emily held
down her head. "Speak truth, Emily,"'
continued her father; " if Mrs. Sydney
would consent to your staying with her,
would you like it? " "I love Mrs. Syd-
ney," replied Emily, in a low voice;
"I love you too, papa, but I am left so
much with Ruth, and I don't love her
at all. " Mrs. Sydney pressed her to her
bosom, and exclaimed--u Oh that it was
in my power to bid you stay! " "The
power shall be yours," replied Mr. Bland-
ford, " if you will indeed receive my child,
and an ample pecuniary compensation \
shall accompany the thanks of a grateful
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ROSE AND EMILY; OR,
heart; I would confide her wholly to you
for a few years; educate her as you do
your own children, but let her not forget
her father. "' Emily sprang, into his arras,
begged him not to leave her long, but
said she should like to live with Mrs,
Sydney. . " This is not a hastily con-
ceived plan," continued Mr. Blandford;
"frequently have I thought upon the
advantages that would arise to Emily
from your instruction, and your chil-
drens' example; and I have only been.
withheld from mentioning the subject,
by the apprehension that your health
was unequal to the task of educating,
and," he added, with a sigh, " of reform-
ing my poor child; but since I find you
have already taken measures to com-
mence instruction upon different terms,
? I venture to propose mine; and, if the
welfare of the poor motherless Emily be
dear to you, I trust you will not oppose
what appears to be as much her wish as
my own. " "Indeed, Sir," replied Mrs.
Sydney, " you over-rate both my powers
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*nd talents; they have hitherto been ex-
ercised in a very limited scale, and I fear
would fail to benefit any one who is de-
stined for a wider sphere. How can I,
who have so long been buried in the bo-
som of retirement, train up a child for the
world? I know not its fashion; even its
customs I may have forgotten, or they
may have varied their form since I lived
in it. " "Another time," said Mr. Bland-
ford, " I shall beg to renew the subject
and, hastily rising, desired Emily to wish
Mrs. Sydney good night; her eyes spark-
led with hope and affection, but she kiss-
ed her and her daughters in silence.
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CHAR VIII.
The next day Mrs. Sydney received the
following letter from Mr. Blandford:
"Madam,.
"The subject which was hastily start-
ed yesterdajr, was not the sudden wish
of the moment, but has long employed
my most serious meditations. Since I
have had the happiness of knowing you,
with the frequent opportunities of obser-
ving the guileless manners, the retiring
virtues, the mental graces, of your eldest
daughter, and the endearing simplicity
and cheerful temper of your HttleRose, I
have secretly wished my Emily's disposi-
tion resembled theirs 5 and imagined, that
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had she been blessed with the same ad-
vantages of admonition and example, she
might have been equally amiable.
"These reflections passing repeatedly
before my mind, acquired strength from
every review of them, and I consider it
a duty I owe my daughter to attempt ob-
taining for her the only means by which,
I believe, she will ever be rendered all
my heart desires. Oh! when I look at
her, memory recalls with added poig-
nancy of regret, the image of my lost
treasure, her sainted mother. Had she
lived, instead of deploring my poor Emi-
ly's faults, I should have exulted in her
virtues; exulted, madam, as you must
secretly do, in those of your daughters.
"Since I have known the Miss Syd-
neys, I have more clearly and painfully
distinguished the errors of my child,
which, I fear, some false mistaken ideas
of my own have increased,. if not occa-
sioned. I have sometimes thought her
nature incapable of attachment; sul-
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ROSE AND EMILY; Oil,
len when reproved by me, and resentful
if chidden by others'; unmoved at times
by either threats or caresses, I have be-
lieved her entirely without that charm
of. a youthful character--affection; but
this opinion, which has embittered many
a moment of my life, is yielding to an
opposite conviction; and when I see the
ardency of her gratitude, and. the tender-
nes of her love towards you, the preser-
ver of her life, I think her possessed of
qualities, that, if properly brought into
action, may render her amiable and en-
gaging; you only have been able to awa-
ken these dormant feelings, and it is you
only whom I wish to direct and regulate
them. Might I but hope you would con-
sider this subject; might I but natter my-
self you would consent to become the
monitress of my Emily, I should no
longer despair of seeing her the pride
and blessing of my life.
My fortune is ample; its superfluity
has often been bestowed on unworthy
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? objects. Let me then, for once, have the
satisfaction of reflecting that a small part
of it ministers to the comfort of one whose
virtues and talents would dignify and
adorn any situation. In this praise I am
sincere; in the motive of it perhaps I am
selfish. In plain terms, my dear madam,
I once more intreat you to receive my
Emily. The parental feelings which per-
vade your own bosom will lead you to
judge of mine; anxious, to a degree of
agony, for the welfare of my child, yet I
have hitherto mistaken the means of pro-
moting it; and I view her, at present,
the victim of my ill judged opinions. I
despise the fantastical theories of modern
education, and would prefer her mind a
perfect blank, rather than have it impress-
ed with such ideas as I have too fre-
quently discovered in the school-trained
girls of fashion. To you only would I
dare to confide her, for you only can
transform her to what I wish. I am
aware how difficult will be the task I
would impose upon you, and that it can
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never be in my power to offer a sufficient
compensation; all I can do is to solicit
your acceptance of some pecuniary re-
turn, which, like my gratitude, shall be
for life; and, like the friendship of my
Emily, shall succeed to your daughters.
If you have the humanity to receive my
child, you must permit me to render
your establishment liberal and easy. I
am an unsettled being; my heart carries
in it the image of my lost Emily, and
cannot long attach itself to one spot;
change is my only relief; it is my inten-
tion soon to quit England for two years
or more; travelling does not permit of
instruction ; and unless you receive my
child, she. must be her father's com-
panion* In leaving her under your pro-
tection, my mind would derive a consola-
tion it has long in vain required. Let me
implore you to take this proposal into
serious consideration, and I shall wait
your reply with anxious impatience. "
This letter excited in Mrs. Sydney
a powerful interest both for the father
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and child. She perceived the advan-
tages which would result to herself and
daughters in acceding to Mr. Blandford's
request, but self-interest did not for a mo-
ment influence her decision. The more
she considered the subject, the more con-
vinced was she of her own inability to
educate Emily for the sphere. of life in
which her fortune would, probably, re-
quire her to move; yet every re-
view represented her as a neglected
child, whose errors could only be eradi-
cated by an unremitted course of affec-
tionate attentions. . . She . knew Emily
was attached to her, and had frequently
observed that from her the most trivial
expression of encouragement, or a glance
of disapprobation, had decided her either
to pursue or desist from any thing that
might be in agitation- This influence
over her inclinations would enable her
the more easily to correct what was
wrong in her habits or. temper; but
though she might regulate the impulses
of her heart, and reform the predominant
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ROSE AND EMILY; OH,
failings of her disposition, how could she
instruct her in those accomplishments
"which form often a principal, and she
thought, in some degree, really an essen-
tial part of . education for the rich and
noble? Sometimes, indeed, more valu-
able acquirements are sacrificed for the
attainment of these, yet to some extent
they are necessary. Her own daughters.
were educated for the confined rank in
which Providence had placed them; she
only wished they should possess in them-
selves those mental resources and inno-
cent amusements which might render
them companionable and domestic. Isa-
bel had been early instructed by her
father in French, and accustomed to
converse in k with her parents and bro-
ther; and. Rose was beginning the same
'language. Drawing had been a study
which the beautiful country they inha-
bited, rendered a source of pleasure tlw
most interesting, and this taste was cul-
tivated in Isabel till it had already attain-
ed excellence. Botany, in their rural
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107
rambles, formed another part of their
amusements; they delighted to trace
the germ in the bud, to watch the bud
expanding into the flower, to trace the
hand of Providence in the formation and
- protection of the simplest objects in the
creation, and thus, "looking through
nature up to nature's God," to find new
causes of gratitude and adoration. With
music and dancing they were totally un-
acquainted, and these latter accomplish*
ments Mrs. Sydney believed absolutely
necessary, in educating Emily for that
world in. which she would one day ap-
pear. She scarcely suffered herself to
reflect on the advantages she and her
daughters would derive from her ac-
ceding to Mr. Blandford's proposal, or
on the tender and anxious affection she
felt for Emily; for so powerful was the
conviction, that were she to undertake
her education, she should be defective
in some of its material points, and he
therefore unjust to engage in it, that she
conscientiously resolved to decline it aU
f6
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hibition removed, she began in a low
voice--" Here is a heart's ease, Emily,.
that's for you; and here is one for. my-
self too" "Why is heart's ease foij
Emily and you? " said her mother smiling. ,
"Because," she replied, " we are both so
happy > she is happy to get well, and I am
happy to see her so*. Then she is. happy
to have such a good papa, and I am happy
in having such a dear mamma--so heart's
ease must belong to us," "What is next,
my little moralizer? " said Mrs. Sydney.
"The next ia a beautiful lily, so fair and
upright, that I think it is like Isabel. '*
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*' And what have you ? for me V* asked
her mother. "Nothing mamma--I
could find nothing like yOu--I looked
every where; but there was nothing I
could fancy except this balm, and that is
not pretty enough; yet I heard Mr.
Price say you poured balm into every
body's bpsom. " Mrs. Sydney caught
the little prattler to her heart, and bade
her go on. "I have but one more that
has meaning in it," she said, " and that
is a rose, my ownself-->>. tb. e last that re-
mained upon the tree--the youngest you
know. Phcebe brought methemallto day;
but under the flowers is something else--
a*huneh of grapes for dear Emily. Phoebe
knew I liked grapes, so . she gave them to
me; but when I said poor Family was ill,.
and. I had rather she should h#ve them
than I, Phcebe told me. 1 might part with
them to her, if I chose, but she hoped I
would not forget she gave them to me;
and that I would love her for it. I said
I would, and so I do, better, ah! tea
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times better, than if she had insisted on
my eating them myself. "
When she had ended this rhapsody of
fancy and affection, to which Emily had
listened in placid silence, her mother,
smiling, told her she found she had not for-
gotten the fables of Flora; a beautiful cot-
lection by Dr. Langhorne, in which the
properties and feelings of persons are ap-
plied to flowers. She replied, " No
mamma; but it was the playyou read to us.
last night that made me think of this--
I thought how I should have liked to
have been Perdita, and presented the
flowers as she did. "
The judicious treatment of Mr Price,.
and the tender nursing of Mrs. Sydney,
soon restored Emily to health. Mr. .
Blandford considered her as the preser-
ver of his child, and was unbounded in
his expressions of gratitude; whilst
Emily, on her part, clung to her with the
fondest affection.
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CHAP. VII.
The summer was now passed; and the
? uncertain state of Mrs. Sydney s health
had prevented her commencing the plan
she had proposed for the support of her-
self and children. She still lingered on
the spot so many years the seat of all her
happiness, and thought with anguish on
the moment when necessity would. oblige
her to quit it. She had no near relations
to whom she could apply for assistance -T
some distant ones had the power, and
probably might have the will to. serve
her; but she knew how reluctantly the
hand opens to the relief of such as solicit
its aid; how chilling are the good wishes
"that accompany a gift requested, and she
. shrunk'from. the mortification. of a bene-
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fit that would at most but procrastinate,
not prevent, the hour of her departure.
The lengthened evenings of autumn,
unenlivened by social intercourse, were
tedious and unpleasant to Mr. Bland-
ford, and he secretly wished again
to change the scene. As his seclusion
from society was the effect of a trifling
disappointment, the sense of which time
had, in some degree, worn away; so
his desire to. return to it, originated in
the same caprice.
Alas, poor Emily! what will be thy
fete, with a parent so uncertain in his
own steps, so unfit to direct thine! Yet
Mr. Blandford's heart was the seat of
many noble virtues. In the exercise of
benevolence and charity he often dis-
played firmness and perseverance. The
eye of sorrow was never lifted up to hiin
in vain, nor did he turn away from the
voice of the mourner. These appeals
to him were so certain of exciting
his sympathy, that the semblance of
misery was often borrowed, the tale
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of woe often fabricated, and he became
the dupe of the designing. A discovery
of such impositions never failed to pro-
duce those feelings of misanthropy which
led him for a time to shun society.
Mr. Blandford was an only son; every
gratification that money could purchase,
every indulgence that affection could
grant, was his from infancy to manhood.
Uncontrouled in all his wishes, it was pe-
culiarly fortunate that he possessed a
good disposition, or the most fatal conse-
quences might have ensued. ;
On the death of his parents, he visited
the continent, chiefly residing in Italy,
where he married an English lady of
great beauty and merit; but the same
hour which gave a daughter to his arms,
deprived him ef an amiable wife. To
sooth his affliction, he had again recourse
to travelling, and in change of place and
objects found a temporary alleviation of
his misery; but this plan, at first adopt-
ed as a relief to his mind, became at last
ne. cQss. ary from habit, .
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This unsettled mode of life was ill
adapted to any system of education,
which Emily's age began to render ne-
cessary; he therefore hired a house in
London, with an intention of engaging a
well-informed woman to instruct her;
but unfortunately in the families with
whom he associated on his first arrival in
town, he met with daughters whose edu. -
cation had been shewy and superficial;.
who practised a little of every thing, and
understood nothing; whose manners were
elegant and polished, but when he at-
tempted by conversation to draw forth
the qualities of the mind, he found it
composed of childish trifles, with the
shreds and patches of fashion, and he
turned disgusted from accomplishments
that merely gave a varnish to the exte-
rior of woman.
A prejudice in some minds becomes a
principle of action; and when we are
guided by extremes, we generally lose
the object we aim at. Mr. Blandford
determined to avoid altogether, what he
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conceived to be, t he dangers of education,
and to consign Emily to the care of an
old servant whose fidelity and integrity
had been proved, and whose entire igno-
rance of all "lettered lore," he con-
sidered a recommendation rather than
an' objection. This servant, whose name
was Ruth, was of the meanest birth, un-
couth in her manners, and blunt in her
expressions; but she appeared honest
and undesigning, was really fond of Emily
when she gave her no trouble, and was
obedient to her master.
Mr. Blandford sometimes attempted
to teach his daughter himself, but she.
disliked every species of constraint; and
to be quiet, for even the short time that
the first lessons required, seemed to her
a punishment; to avoid which, she had .
recourse to every little stratagem; her
father found a tear irresistible, a smile
rendered her too endearing, and a fit of
passion made instruction useless ; so. that
lessens were generally relinquished as
soon *s begun, and either caresses de<<
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tained her by his side, or reproofs sent
her back to Ruth.
Whatever were the faults of Emily,
she was less an object of censure than
compassion. No tender mother watched
over her infancy, to correct her errors or
reward her good conduct; and here, let
me remind you, my young readers, who
are blest with parents, of the love and
duty you owe them; they are your guar-
dians in this life, and your guides to the
next. The most devoted affection and
obedience only can repay them for the
care and anxiety with which they at-
tended to your early years, and never let
this debt of gratitude be forgotten.
To your teachers and instructors, those
who patiently lead you up the difficult
ascent of science; who stimulate your
exertions, reward your labours, and re-
prove your errors, be gentle, attentive,
and submissive ; and rejoice that you aro?
not left, like poor Kmily, to the injudi-
cious indulgences, or capricious punish-
ments,. of an ignorant dependents ?
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The desolate situation of Mrs. Sydney
had excited in Mr. Blandford sentiments of
the most respectful compassion, and hav-
ing been instrumental in procuring her a
trifling annuity, afforded him heartfelt
satisfaction; but this, however accept-
able, was in itself so inadequate to the
necessities of a family, that he revolved
in his mind many plans, in order to ren-
der her a more essential benefit, but was
unable to determine upon any. The
single taper that dimly lighted her little
cottage, the frugal fire that scarcely
warmed it, (though in a part of the king-
dom where coalsare cheap,) threwa gloom
over the scene that heightened its misery
and desolation. s '- /'
Isabel, in whatever she was engaged,
displaj'edva cheerfulness, a fortitude, and
an activity, that he had never before seen
consistently combined in a girl of fifteen.
Rose, always affectionate and good hu-
moured, was his little play-thing and de-
light, and the increasing interest, esteem,
and pity which he felt for this family,
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made him reluctant to leave the village
while they were in poverty and sorrow.
The parsonage was still unoccupied, and
as the present curate refused to reside in
so retired a place, it was at the service of
any one who wished to hire it. A spring
and summer's neglect had occasioned
everything around itto grow in wild luxu-
riance; he knew Mrs. Sydney's attach-
ment to the spot, and, could he once
more obtain it for her, he might have the
satisfaction of reflecting that he left her
surrounded by, at least, local comforts;
but how was she to support herself? This
thought suggested another, and no sooner
was it admitted, than he ardently desired
its accomplishment. Would she receive
Emily as her child and pupil--would she
but allow her to share in the lessons of
Rose, he should consider himself fortunate.
He had, for some time,painfully remarked
the rude and unaccommodating manners
of his child; and when he contrasted them
with the playful simplicity and obliging
sweetness of Rose, he felt a pang some-
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thing like self-reproach, and he ardently
wished she could profit by the instruction
of Mrs. Sydney, and the example of her
children. He weighed the whole. plan
in his mind, and resolved to apply for the
parsonage, as a preliminary step to the
proposal he intended to make to Mrs.
Sydney. The application was acceded
to by Dr. Blake, and the village work-
men were instantly ordered to begin the
necessary repairs.
It was one chill evening in the month
of November, when Mr.
Blandford was
seated by their little fire, conversing with
Mrs. Sydney and Isabel, that Rose, who
had been on a visit to Phcebe, hastily
ran into the room with the news that
the parsonage was repairing, and that
somebody must be going to reside in it.
A faint crimson passed across Mrs. Syd-
ney's cheek at this intelligence, and
Isabel's mild eye was instantly suffused
with a tear. After a short pause, she
said--" I am glad of it my child; may
its destined inhabitants be as happy as
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we once were. As for us, we shall sooa
quit the village; I wrote to a person at
B to engage apartments, and her
answer, which I have just received, is
more favourable than I expected. We
shall have two neat rooms on reasonable
terms, and already she has obtained the
promise of a small number ot day pupils.
I have been too long inactive, and must
determine to be so no longer. "
Mr. Blandford ventured to hint at the
uncertainty of her success, and enquired
whether she did not think there might
be some other plan more promising. --
"I know of none," she replied, " and
however uncertain this may be, I must
hope for the best. " "I too am going
from hence," he said, " and have given
my landlord notice that I shall leave his
house this day month--perhaps earlier,'*
** This day month! " repeated Emily,
who was present, and bursting into tears,
covered her face with her hands. "I
shall return to London," replied her
father, " and you know you like town .
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better than the country. " "I might say
so once; but I am sure I don't like it
half so well now. " "And why not? "
"There will be nobody to love me V*
"Shall not I be with you, Emily; and
do not I love you? " "Yes, papa, some-
times; but when you are not with me, I
shall be all alone. " "There is Ruth. "
*' O, papa, Ruth is not Mrs. Sydney. "
"Then you#vould wish to stay with Mrs.
Sydney and leave me? " Emily held
down her head. "Speak truth, Emily,"'
continued her father; " if Mrs. Sydney
would consent to your staying with her,
would you like it? " "I love Mrs. Syd-
ney," replied Emily, in a low voice;
"I love you too, papa, but I am left so
much with Ruth, and I don't love her
at all. " Mrs. Sydney pressed her to her
bosom, and exclaimed--u Oh that it was
in my power to bid you stay! " "The
power shall be yours," replied Mr. Bland-
ford, " if you will indeed receive my child,
and an ample pecuniary compensation \
shall accompany the thanks of a grateful
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ROSE AND EMILY; OR,
heart; I would confide her wholly to you
for a few years; educate her as you do
your own children, but let her not forget
her father. "' Emily sprang, into his arras,
begged him not to leave her long, but
said she should like to live with Mrs,
Sydney. . " This is not a hastily con-
ceived plan," continued Mr. Blandford;
"frequently have I thought upon the
advantages that would arise to Emily
from your instruction, and your chil-
drens' example; and I have only been.
withheld from mentioning the subject,
by the apprehension that your health
was unequal to the task of educating,
and," he added, with a sigh, " of reform-
ing my poor child; but since I find you
have already taken measures to com-
mence instruction upon different terms,
? I venture to propose mine; and, if the
welfare of the poor motherless Emily be
dear to you, I trust you will not oppose
what appears to be as much her wish as
my own. " "Indeed, Sir," replied Mrs.
Sydney, " you over-rate both my powers
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*nd talents; they have hitherto been ex-
ercised in a very limited scale, and I fear
would fail to benefit any one who is de-
stined for a wider sphere. How can I,
who have so long been buried in the bo-
som of retirement, train up a child for the
world? I know not its fashion; even its
customs I may have forgotten, or they
may have varied their form since I lived
in it. " "Another time," said Mr. Bland-
ford, " I shall beg to renew the subject
and, hastily rising, desired Emily to wish
Mrs. Sydney good night; her eyes spark-
led with hope and affection, but she kiss-
ed her and her daughters in silence.
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CHAR VIII.
The next day Mrs. Sydney received the
following letter from Mr. Blandford:
"Madam,.
"The subject which was hastily start-
ed yesterdajr, was not the sudden wish
of the moment, but has long employed
my most serious meditations. Since I
have had the happiness of knowing you,
with the frequent opportunities of obser-
ving the guileless manners, the retiring
virtues, the mental graces, of your eldest
daughter, and the endearing simplicity
and cheerful temper of your HttleRose, I
have secretly wished my Emily's disposi-
tion resembled theirs 5 and imagined, that
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had she been blessed with the same ad-
vantages of admonition and example, she
might have been equally amiable.
"These reflections passing repeatedly
before my mind, acquired strength from
every review of them, and I consider it
a duty I owe my daughter to attempt ob-
taining for her the only means by which,
I believe, she will ever be rendered all
my heart desires. Oh! when I look at
her, memory recalls with added poig-
nancy of regret, the image of my lost
treasure, her sainted mother. Had she
lived, instead of deploring my poor Emi-
ly's faults, I should have exulted in her
virtues; exulted, madam, as you must
secretly do, in those of your daughters.
"Since I have known the Miss Syd-
neys, I have more clearly and painfully
distinguished the errors of my child,
which, I fear, some false mistaken ideas
of my own have increased,. if not occa-
sioned. I have sometimes thought her
nature incapable of attachment; sul-
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ROSE AND EMILY; Oil,
len when reproved by me, and resentful
if chidden by others'; unmoved at times
by either threats or caresses, I have be-
lieved her entirely without that charm
of. a youthful character--affection; but
this opinion, which has embittered many
a moment of my life, is yielding to an
opposite conviction; and when I see the
ardency of her gratitude, and. the tender-
nes of her love towards you, the preser-
ver of her life, I think her possessed of
qualities, that, if properly brought into
action, may render her amiable and en-
gaging; you only have been able to awa-
ken these dormant feelings, and it is you
only whom I wish to direct and regulate
them. Might I but hope you would con-
sider this subject; might I but natter my-
self you would consent to become the
monitress of my Emily, I should no
longer despair of seeing her the pride
and blessing of my life.
My fortune is ample; its superfluity
has often been bestowed on unworthy
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? objects. Let me then, for once, have the
satisfaction of reflecting that a small part
of it ministers to the comfort of one whose
virtues and talents would dignify and
adorn any situation. In this praise I am
sincere; in the motive of it perhaps I am
selfish. In plain terms, my dear madam,
I once more intreat you to receive my
Emily. The parental feelings which per-
vade your own bosom will lead you to
judge of mine; anxious, to a degree of
agony, for the welfare of my child, yet I
have hitherto mistaken the means of pro-
moting it; and I view her, at present,
the victim of my ill judged opinions. I
despise the fantastical theories of modern
education, and would prefer her mind a
perfect blank, rather than have it impress-
ed with such ideas as I have too fre-
quently discovered in the school-trained
girls of fashion. To you only would I
dare to confide her, for you only can
transform her to what I wish. I am
aware how difficult will be the task I
would impose upon you, and that it can
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never be in my power to offer a sufficient
compensation; all I can do is to solicit
your acceptance of some pecuniary re-
turn, which, like my gratitude, shall be
for life; and, like the friendship of my
Emily, shall succeed to your daughters.
If you have the humanity to receive my
child, you must permit me to render
your establishment liberal and easy. I
am an unsettled being; my heart carries
in it the image of my lost Emily, and
cannot long attach itself to one spot;
change is my only relief; it is my inten-
tion soon to quit England for two years
or more; travelling does not permit of
instruction ; and unless you receive my
child, she. must be her father's com-
panion* In leaving her under your pro-
tection, my mind would derive a consola-
tion it has long in vain required. Let me
implore you to take this proposal into
serious consideration, and I shall wait
your reply with anxious impatience. "
This letter excited in Mrs. Sydney
a powerful interest both for the father
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and child. She perceived the advan-
tages which would result to herself and
daughters in acceding to Mr. Blandford's
request, but self-interest did not for a mo-
ment influence her decision. The more
she considered the subject, the more con-
vinced was she of her own inability to
educate Emily for the sphere. of life in
which her fortune would, probably, re-
quire her to move; yet every re-
view represented her as a neglected
child, whose errors could only be eradi-
cated by an unremitted course of affec-
tionate attentions. . . She . knew Emily
was attached to her, and had frequently
observed that from her the most trivial
expression of encouragement, or a glance
of disapprobation, had decided her either
to pursue or desist from any thing that
might be in agitation- This influence
over her inclinations would enable her
the more easily to correct what was
wrong in her habits or. temper; but
though she might regulate the impulses
of her heart, and reform the predominant
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ROSE AND EMILY; OH,
failings of her disposition, how could she
instruct her in those accomplishments
"which form often a principal, and she
thought, in some degree, really an essen-
tial part of . education for the rich and
noble? Sometimes, indeed, more valu-
able acquirements are sacrificed for the
attainment of these, yet to some extent
they are necessary. Her own daughters.
were educated for the confined rank in
which Providence had placed them; she
only wished they should possess in them-
selves those mental resources and inno-
cent amusements which might render
them companionable and domestic. Isa-
bel had been early instructed by her
father in French, and accustomed to
converse in k with her parents and bro-
ther; and. Rose was beginning the same
'language. Drawing had been a study
which the beautiful country they inha-
bited, rendered a source of pleasure tlw
most interesting, and this taste was cul-
tivated in Isabel till it had already attain-
ed excellence. Botany, in their rural
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rambles, formed another part of their
amusements; they delighted to trace
the germ in the bud, to watch the bud
expanding into the flower, to trace the
hand of Providence in the formation and
- protection of the simplest objects in the
creation, and thus, "looking through
nature up to nature's God," to find new
causes of gratitude and adoration. With
music and dancing they were totally un-
acquainted, and these latter accomplish*
ments Mrs. Sydney believed absolutely
necessary, in educating Emily for that
world in. which she would one day ap-
pear. She scarcely suffered herself to
reflect on the advantages she and her
daughters would derive from her ac-
ceding to Mr. Blandford's proposal, or
on the tender and anxious affection she
felt for Emily; for so powerful was the
conviction, that were she to undertake
her education, she should be defective
in some of its material points, and he
therefore unjust to engage in it, that she
conscientiously resolved to decline it aU
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