No More Learning

Sometimes the saint
practises that defiance of himself which is a
near relative of domination at any cost and
gives a feeling of power even to the most
lonely; sometimes his swollen sensibility leaps
from the desire to let his           have full
play into the desire to overthrow them like
wild horses under the mighty pressure of a
proud spirit; sometimes he desires a complete
cessation of all disturbing, tormenting, irritating
sensations, a waking sleep, a lasting rest in the
lap of a dull, animal, and plant-like indolence;
sometimes he seeks strife and arouses it within
himself, because boredom has shown him its
yawning countenance.