little
retrousse; her complexion brown, though
clear; and her form possessed neither
the lightness nor the symmetry of mine.
retrousse; her complexion brown, though
clear; and her form possessed neither
the lightness nor the symmetry of mine.
Childrens - Roses and Emily
!
) its prin-
ciples, if he never irftentionally sports
with the feelings of a fellow-creature, by
looks, words, and actions.
'Large bounties to bestow we wish in vain,
But all may shun the guilt of giving pain,'
has been expressively said by a moderij
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female writer; and the remark does equal
honour both to her head and heart. How
frequently have I seen an amiable mind
hurt by ill-timed raillery, or a^blunt re-
mark upon some peculiarity of person or
manner. You remember your uncle and
aunt, Richards, who visited us last sum-
mer. Both are fat, and, as they travelled
in their gig, a gentleman laughably ob-
served, theyJilfed it well: another, more
remarkable for his satirical than hi? , good
humour, added, that they would fill a,post-
chaise well. Your aunt, to whom thi&
ridicule was addressed, replied, ' Nay my
good friend, say a coach at oncebut
though she parried it'with sprightliness,
I saw a passing flush upon her cheek; and
a momentary look of vexation ; her? good
sense, and good humour,' soon, ? however,
banished the uneasiness these jo/res occa-
sioned^! ; Oh mamma," said . Rose,
"was it not that sleek-looking Mr. Ham-
mond who laughed at my aunt? I often
thought he jested a great deal too m. uch
upon her being fat^. and I thought. too,.
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that if he were as fat, he would not be so
very ill-natured. I am sure he looks like
the skeleton knight who carried offthe fair
Imogen, and I wish my aunt had told him
so. " "His remark upon her, my love,
would have warranted 'the retort; but
your aunt was too kind,'and had too much
tr? ue poiite? icsstomiike n reply which would
have been wounding to his vanity,or mor-
tifying. to his self. love. No one can en-
dure to have the shafts of ridicule pointed
against himself. though so many are always ?
ready to aim'them at others; and the
petty pride of saying, as it may be thought,'
a clever thing, is frequently indulged
at the expence, not only of politeness,
but even humanity. I know no talent
more easily acquired, or more offensive
to society, than that of ridicule; very
moderate abilities will suffice for its at-
tainment; but persons who are unfortu-
nate enough to possess it, in attempting
to be witty, frequently become malevo-
lent,. When its object is to humble pride,
to repress conceit and affectation, or to
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correct a moral failing, then it is justi-
fiable in its utmost extent; for its power
is often found more effective than that of
reason; but when it aims at mortifying
the unassuming, at sporting with a defect
of nature, (which perhaps maybe secretly
felt and silently deplored by the sufferer)
it is a species of rudeness and cruelty
which I never knew a truly sensible or
elegant mind capable of committing.
How grieved should I be, to find either
of my dear girls guilty of it. Whenever
you are disposed to laugh at another, re-
flect for a moment, upon your own fail-
ings, and ask yourself whether you would
like to have them exposed to derision.
Mimicry is another kind of ridicule I
equally condemn. The organization of
every frame is not in the same degree
perfect. Many defects possibly may be
corrected by art and our own endeavours;
but there are. some which no skill can
conquer. When I see the blind, the
lame, or the crooked imitated in jest, my
heart revolts at the folly and wickedness
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of those who mimic them; and I cannot
but reflec t, that if they were visited by a
similar affliction, how little they would
be entitled to pity. Ridicule of etfery
description has its origin in vanity or ma-
levolence; people only laugh at defects
or singularities from which they believe
themselves exempt; and thus they flatter
their own self-love, while they wound
that of another; but I am wandering,
my children, from the subject of polite-
ness to what I consider its actual reverse.
It shall, however, end here, and we will
speak of Fanny Belmont,"--" Whose
nose, my dear mamma," interrupted
Rose, "I no longer think too short,' or
whose mouth too wide. How pretty she
looked yesterday, with the tears standing
upon her dark eye-lashes, while the poor
boy was repeating his verses. " "I am
glad, my Rose," said her mother, " that
you begin to discover there are higher
beauties than those of mere feature or
complexion; and that in the graces of
feeling, and the illuminations of intellect,
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? ROSE AND KMILYJ OR,
you now perceive ' a something than
beauty dearer. '"
The admiration of what Rose consider- ,
ed the beautiful in person, and which fre. <<
quentlyled her to form erroneous opinions
and partialities, and, when it did not meet
her eye, to take as unjust prejudices, had
not escaped the penetration of Mrs. Falk-
land, who, one morning when Fanny and
her uncle were gone out . riding, and she,
with the rest of the party, had strolled into
the woods, andhad taken possession of one
of their favourite seats, good-humouredly
proposed herself as the subject of the morn-
ing; and like a fair heroine in romance,
relate her own history. Rose seated her-
self at her feat, with her arm. ? thrown
across her knees; and htjV; bright blue
eyes lifted up to her face; "Do, dear
Mrs. Falkland, tell us every thing about
yourself} we cannot have toomuchof asub-
ject we all so dearly love. " "But do you
think, Rose , you can be silent foranhour? "
O yes, for two if you are speaking. "
"I . will; try you then ; andyou shall hear
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** 27/e Narrative. of a Beauty" , _
"In spite of taf 'large noseV'n^libw
eyes, stinken mouth, and double chin, I
was a beauty in my youth. The menj who
crowded around me, swore that the fire
which illumined my eyes was stolen from
Heaven; that the smile which played
about my mouth was borrowed from the
Graces; that my teeth were pearls, and*
my dimple the cradle of Cupid. My
form, though now more than en bonpoint,
was then light and slender, and my move-
ments in the dance compared to the airy
gracefulness of a sylph. Observe me
now: I am not yet so old as to expect a
speedy summons to another world; yet,'
what remains of those charms which we
prize more than wisdom, which attract
the gaze of the young; and the adulation'
of the inexperienced, while we negleet the1
better qualities of the mind and heart;
qualities hot Only imperishable, but pro-
gressive in their state of excellence? Of
their value I was not convinced till late;
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ROSE ANJt> EMILY; OB,
perhaps not till the fragile forms of beau-
ty were beginning to decay.
** I had several brothers and one sister;
the latter was then in every respect a con-
trast to myself; awl the conscious superio-
rity of mypersonal advantages,sometimes
led me topractiseaspeciesaf petty triumph
? which I now blush to remember, and
which her gentle temper felt, but never
? resented. How often has her mild eye
pleaded for pity! How often have the
soft accents of her voice intrcated for-
bearance! while I, inflated with vanity,
and arrogant with pride, was insensible
to every appeal; and, mistaking raillery
for wit, directed its poisonous shafts
against an unoffending sister,onlybecause
I saw she was less handsome than myself! .
"My sister was simply called Fanny; I
was Margaret ? eraphin. a- My parents
had, from my infiincyv . (distinguished me
by the first name. ;. . but when I began to
read romances, . and; fancied myself suffi-
ciently beautiful to become tile heroine of
one* J begged them adopt . the latter
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appellation; for who ever heard of a lovely
an angelic Margaret? But Seraphina
sounded heavenly! My father smiled, tny
mother approved, and from that moment
I became Seraphina. I had the name
marked at full length upon my handker-
chiefs, written on my visiting cards, and
engraven on my seal; but what extacy
did I experience, on first reading in our
provincial paper, ' A Sonnet to Seraphi-
na! ' for in those days I had sonnets to
my beauty, elegies on my cruelty, and
epigrams on my wit.
"While my sister was in the morning
pursuing with my father, in his library, a
course of intellectual study,I was with my
mother debating on the most becoming
fashion of a hat or gown, and practising
the little airs and graces which 1 intended
to display in the evening*' ;? . ?
"Fanny was enthusiastically fond of
music as a science, and excelled on the
piano; I liked it as a fashion,. ahd because
it varied my powers of attraction; as these
were my sole objectsin the study, I soon
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resigned the piano for the harp, which af-
forded me a finer opportunity of displaying
mywhitearms and graceful figure ; totally
indifferent to the performance, I only
wished to look a St. Cecilia, and I always
found spectators,though I might not boast
of listeners. The young men fluttered
around me with exclamations ofc divine!
charming! ' I attracted through the me-
dium of sight, but Fanny rivetted every
ear, and won the plaudits of science,taste,
and feeling. Webothsung; themovement
of my rosy lips charmed the eye, while
Fanny's voice touched every heart. We
danced; and in this accomplishment my
triumph was complete. I bounded, flew;
and all the soul I had rose in the mazes of
a dance; while Fanny, timidly retiring. . :
from observation, would frequently plead
lassitude to escape from,whatshethought,
an exhibition of her person; 1 You may
dance, Serqjhina,' she would say, 'you
ought to dance; but //--/ am happier
in my father's library, or when I play and
sing to him. '
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"Such were we, when Henry Belmont
Was introduced to our family. He had
passed through the career of the schools
with unremitting diligence, and had left
the university crowned with literary ho-
nours and unblemished reputation. He
had just been presented to a valuable
living in our neighbourhood, and his cha-
racter rendered my father desirous of his
friendship* To the superior distinctions
of a well. educated man, he united the
graceful elegance of a fashionable one.
His conversation marked both the scholar
and the gentleman. With my parents he
was serious and respectful, yet always
easy ; with us he was more lively and ani-
mated; yet, accustomed as I had been
to conquest, for the first time in my life
I felt doubtful of pleasing: and while I
listened to his conversation, I was even
awed into silence, even forgot I was a
beauty. My glass, however, soon recall-
ed me to a sense of my charms, and I
dressed myself with more than my usual
solicitude.
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? 238 pose arft> emily; or,
"At dinner he was placed opposite me,
and by the side of Fanny. I directed my
? whole artillery of attractions against him,
and hoped for my usual success: but he
appeared equally regardless of my lan-
guishings or mysmiles,myplaintivetones,
or my sallies of sportiveness; and as he
conversed with my sister, I observed he
/ even bent over her with an attentive
gaze. I felt stung with dnvy$and mentally
enquired, 'in what personal attraction can
Fanny compare with me? The colour of
her eyes was undecided; it is true they
were shaded by long. dark eye-lashes which
gave them a mild and pleasing expression;
her mouth was not small, but her teeth
were white and even; her nose was a.
little
retrousse; her complexion brown, though
clear; and her form possessed neither
the lightness nor the symmetry of mine.
As he led her to the instrument, I saw
that he pressed her hand; and when she
arose to give place to another lady, im-
printed a kiss upon it. Fanny's modest
eye sunk to the ground and her 4 eloquent
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blood spokeinher:cheeks,'at this instance
of tender gallantry! I had often received
the same compliment, but never with the
same respect; and my heart again invo-
luntarily enquired, 'In what ts my younger
sister my superior, that she thus engages
the attention^ and wins the admiration of
the only man from whomlsliould be proud
to receive them? ' My vanity had hitherto
been flattered, my self-love gratified; I
had been pleased with those who did
homage to my beauty. ; but 'had never
entertained a sentiment of respect for
any one; Belmont alone had inspired me
with it, and he Was insensible to my
charms, and attracted by my sister!
"On retiring to rest, Fanny, as usual,
stopped at the door of my apartment to
? wish me good-night, and give the parting
kiss of peace and rove ; she had stretched
out her arms to embrace me; I shrunk
from them, and coldlysaid, 'Good-night. '
'Only good-night,' she exclaimed;'my Se-
raphina, my dear Seraphina! What have I
done, how have I offended, that thus you
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would part from me? I implore you to tell
me;' and she held out the hand which Bel-
mont had kissed ; I flung it from me, and
rushing into my chamber,bolted the door.
In vain she intreated for admittance, and
I heard her sigh deeply as she passed
along the gallery into her own room.
"Alone, apd all silent around me, I
began to reflect upon my conduct. It was
the first time I had ever seriously com-
muned with my own heart, "and it rose in
reproaches against me. Though I had
. sometimes indulged myself in ridiculing
Fanny,it proceeded more from a desire of
appearing lively and witty, than from ab-
solutely considering her an object of such
unfeeling sport; and the gentle manner
in which she always received my jests, had,
in spite of my self-love, endeared her the
more closely to my affcctioiis. In the ad-
justment of my dress, how solicitous she
had always proved herself; and would
hasten to complete her own to assist in
mine; howunretorting at my petulance;
how consoling when any disappointment
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corroded my spirits; how kind,liow placid'
at all times; she seemed to live but for
the happiness and blessing of others.
How submissive had she always been
under that neglect which would have
morthied, have maddened me; how
readily yielded to me the dominijn of
captivating without a murmur or a sigh;
end now, the only man whose attentions
had ever been pointedly directed to her,
I was ambitions of attaching to myself!
"Though my temper was naturally vio-
lent,from having been always uncontroul-
ed, and though I was impatient under any
disappointment,my heart wasneither cold
nor unfeeling; and as these reflections
pressed upon my mind, I burst into tears,
and wished to seek and ask forgiveness of
my;gentleFanny,for the caprice and injus-
ticeof my conduct. I stole out of myroom
and tapped at her door; she opened it
immediately, and I threw myself into her
arms. 'I have been unjust, my Fanny, un-
kind, capricious,ridiculous! Will you par-
don me r' 'Can Seraphina doubt it? 1 will
not even enquire the cause, lest it should
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t>e more lastingly remembered; it is
enoughthatyou regretit. 1 wasconvmced,
my sister, that you could not be happy^
whatever was the circumstance in which
your error originated; I therefore expect-
ed this visit, and have continued to read
in the hope of seeing you. ' I telt humbled
that she shouldimpute error to mc, though
1 was but too conscious of it myself, and
was leaving the room without a reply. She
threw her arms round me ; and the tender
pressure of her lips to mine, the sweet tone
in which she pronounced 'God bless you! '
as she raised her soft eyes to Heaven, re-
stored me wholly to her--' God bless my
sister! ' we each repeated, and separated.
"I felt consoled as I returned to my
chamber, that we were reconciled without
my having experienced the humiliation of
any direct avowal of my folly ; but I was
astonished and mortified when I reflected
upon the composure of her manner; and
that she could quietly read, whilst I had
been tortured by conflicting emotions;
but such are ever the advantages which
well-regulated minds have over those that
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yield to every instant impulse. Fanny had
left me in sorrow; but from the conscious
rectitude of her own heart, she had de-
rived peace and comfort, and she had
wept only for me.
"At breakfast we met as usual. On the
countenance of Fanny I observed an ex-
pression of even more than customary
cheerfulness. After breakfast she said she
wished to remain all the morning in her
own apartment, without interruption, as
she was desirous of completing a drawing
she had begun.
"Belmont was introduced; I only was
with my mother. He enquired for Fanny,
and was told she was particularly engaged,
and had desired not to be interrupted. I
remarked a sudden shade pass over his
iine countenance, and he appeared for a
minute thoughtful and disappointed; but,
turning to me, who was employed at a
tambour frame, not so much for the uti-
lity or ornament of the work, as to display
my white arms in a graceful attitude; he
enquired if we had a good neighbourhood,
arfid introduced several local subjects
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which I was able to answer with a degree
of ease and vivacity I hoped lie would
think enchanting.
"It is said by Dr. Johnson, that * many
people can talk, but few can converse. '' I
wasone of the talkers. Onsubjectsof gene-
ral currency, such as dress, public amuse-
ments, and the weather, my observations
were as ingenious and as correct as those
of others. I could also laugh at my young
friends, and had a manner of ridiculing
their peculiarities, which seldom railed
to divert my male auditors. I could pro-
pose many charades, and sometimes find
a solution for one; I had even a few fine
sentiments on love and friendship, and
though they had been so often repeated,
as now seldom to be listened to, yet Bel-
mont had never heard them, and they
wereready to be advanced on the slightest
command; but when any subjects Mere
discussed, which required the exertion of
reason, or the powers of imagination, I
was unable to take a part, and left the
field to Fanny; always finding, in my re-
treat, many of both sexes, who wer>>
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equally desirous of being spared an expo-
sure of their intellectual poverty.
"The chat of the' day, and the descrip-
tion of our society, seemed but little to
interest Belmont, though, had he appear-
ed to listen with approbation, it would
have afforded me an inexhaustible fund
of talk; but, at the first pause which my
pretty lips made, he enquired if we had
an extensive circulating library; ^f the
books were well chosen; or if novels, as
is generally the case, occupied every
shelf? 'There are only novels,' I re-
plied. 'I suppose,' he continued, * that
Mr. Falkland's library supplies you with .
so many superior productions, you have
not often recourse to the public one; for
novels, however they may occasionally
amuse an idle hour, or relieve a gloomy
one, yet they certainly, (if indulged in too
much). enervate the mind, and destroydts;
relish for works of reasoning and infbrmi- .
tion. ' A blush of shamestole over njy face
at this remark, for I had scarcely read any
other volumes than ;those of the circula-
ting library ; and my father's books, since
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I had selected for myself, had been
quite neglected. *' Do you admire
poetry? ' he said. r O, passionately! ' I
exclaimed. 'Of what kind? ' * Sonnets
I doat upon; but verse of all descrip-
tions I adore. ' I thought he smiled, but
I was glad of an opportunity of exhibi.
ting a rapture, of appearing enthusiastic.
'Perhaps, Miss Falkland,' he said, ' you
sometimes are poetical? For I think
there seldom exists this very high relish
for poetry, without some inclination to
poetize. ' 'I do not often write,* I re-
plied, in a half tone of retiring modesty.
1 Sometimes then you do,' he answered
with vivacity; 'might I be so honoured
as to see any of your compositions? I
am an humble votary of the muses my-
self, and should rejoice to rind a kindred
mind. " A deep crimson now flushed my
cheek; I had strayed into the path of
falsehood, and I knew not how to re-
treat; but the wish to appear captiva-
ting. to Belmont, to evince . that 'kin-
deed mind' he so desired to meet, urged
me still further, and I took from nvy
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portfolio some lines which Fanny had
addressed to me. As he read them, his
fine eyes were lighted up with extacy.
* They are beautiful T he exclaimed;
how tender, how elegant the sentiment!
how the soul of the sister breathes in
every line! how perfect is friendship
when thus cemented by consanguinity! '
He respectfully pressed iny hand as he
returned the lines, but he imt ri iied no
kiss upon it; yet he continued to gaze
upon me with an expression of astonish-
ment and admiration that perplexed,
while it delighted me. I still pursued my
work, for confusion prevented my look-
ing up. 'Be not so diffident,' he whis-
pered; 'but real merit is always so; let
me entreat you to cultivate this truly
poetical talent; for my own part, I am
so warm an admirer of it, that no pilgrim
ever paid his devotions with more zeal to
his patron saint, than I mine to the
shrine of true poetry. ' ;. 4 ? . . ;
"Oh 1 had I really merited his eulo-
gium, I should have been indeed blest-
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ed; but I painfully experienced that--
'Praise umleserv'd, is satire iu disguise;' .
and I felt myself only an object of ridi-
cule and contempt. The praise was just-
ly Fanny's, and as this reflection press-
ed upon my mind, feelings even of envy
corroded my bosom. He had not once
complimented my beauty; not once re-
quested me to sing or play; but this
poetical effusion. of affection and genius
enraptured him; it was Fanny still who
charmed!
"I ventured at length to entreat him
to favour me with some of his produc-
tions, and he promised to bring his ma-
nuscripts the next day. He remained
with lis till the hour of dressing for din-
ner, and as he rose to take leaver he
said--* Since I shall not have the plea-
sure of seeing your sister . to-day, may I
request you to give, with my respectful
compliments, this song, which I promised
her to bring; flattering myself, at the
same time^ that s*h'e would? h^e permit-
ted me to have practised it tfith&ef. this
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249
morning; but,' he added, with a smile
which I had penetration- enough to dis!
coyer' was designed. to conceal a sensa-
tion of mortification, * ladies must be
allowed to forget their promises, though
politeness, if not honour, commands that
we. should remember. ours. '
** It was now too evident that he was
piqued^ 'Ah, then! ' I said to myself, . .
* Fanny was informed of this visit, and
hate purposely absented herself; she has
read my heart; she has resigned him to
me. >> Generous, noble girl! and /--I
have added duplicity to vanity; he will
despise me; I despise myself. ". .
"I went to. my own apartment with .
ciples, if he never irftentionally sports
with the feelings of a fellow-creature, by
looks, words, and actions.
'Large bounties to bestow we wish in vain,
But all may shun the guilt of giving pain,'
has been expressively said by a moderij
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female writer; and the remark does equal
honour both to her head and heart. How
frequently have I seen an amiable mind
hurt by ill-timed raillery, or a^blunt re-
mark upon some peculiarity of person or
manner. You remember your uncle and
aunt, Richards, who visited us last sum-
mer. Both are fat, and, as they travelled
in their gig, a gentleman laughably ob-
served, theyJilfed it well: another, more
remarkable for his satirical than hi? , good
humour, added, that they would fill a,post-
chaise well. Your aunt, to whom thi&
ridicule was addressed, replied, ' Nay my
good friend, say a coach at oncebut
though she parried it'with sprightliness,
I saw a passing flush upon her cheek; and
a momentary look of vexation ; her? good
sense, and good humour,' soon, ? however,
banished the uneasiness these jo/res occa-
sioned^! ; Oh mamma," said . Rose,
"was it not that sleek-looking Mr. Ham-
mond who laughed at my aunt? I often
thought he jested a great deal too m. uch
upon her being fat^. and I thought. too,.
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that if he were as fat, he would not be so
very ill-natured. I am sure he looks like
the skeleton knight who carried offthe fair
Imogen, and I wish my aunt had told him
so. " "His remark upon her, my love,
would have warranted 'the retort; but
your aunt was too kind,'and had too much
tr? ue poiite? icsstomiike n reply which would
have been wounding to his vanity,or mor-
tifying. to his self. love. No one can en-
dure to have the shafts of ridicule pointed
against himself. though so many are always ?
ready to aim'them at others; and the
petty pride of saying, as it may be thought,'
a clever thing, is frequently indulged
at the expence, not only of politeness,
but even humanity. I know no talent
more easily acquired, or more offensive
to society, than that of ridicule; very
moderate abilities will suffice for its at-
tainment; but persons who are unfortu-
nate enough to possess it, in attempting
to be witty, frequently become malevo-
lent,. When its object is to humble pride,
to repress conceit and affectation, or to
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correct a moral failing, then it is justi-
fiable in its utmost extent; for its power
is often found more effective than that of
reason; but when it aims at mortifying
the unassuming, at sporting with a defect
of nature, (which perhaps maybe secretly
felt and silently deplored by the sufferer)
it is a species of rudeness and cruelty
which I never knew a truly sensible or
elegant mind capable of committing.
How grieved should I be, to find either
of my dear girls guilty of it. Whenever
you are disposed to laugh at another, re-
flect for a moment, upon your own fail-
ings, and ask yourself whether you would
like to have them exposed to derision.
Mimicry is another kind of ridicule I
equally condemn. The organization of
every frame is not in the same degree
perfect. Many defects possibly may be
corrected by art and our own endeavours;
but there are. some which no skill can
conquer. When I see the blind, the
lame, or the crooked imitated in jest, my
heart revolts at the folly and wickedness
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of those who mimic them; and I cannot
but reflec t, that if they were visited by a
similar affliction, how little they would
be entitled to pity. Ridicule of etfery
description has its origin in vanity or ma-
levolence; people only laugh at defects
or singularities from which they believe
themselves exempt; and thus they flatter
their own self-love, while they wound
that of another; but I am wandering,
my children, from the subject of polite-
ness to what I consider its actual reverse.
It shall, however, end here, and we will
speak of Fanny Belmont,"--" Whose
nose, my dear mamma," interrupted
Rose, "I no longer think too short,' or
whose mouth too wide. How pretty she
looked yesterday, with the tears standing
upon her dark eye-lashes, while the poor
boy was repeating his verses. " "I am
glad, my Rose," said her mother, " that
you begin to discover there are higher
beauties than those of mere feature or
complexion; and that in the graces of
feeling, and the illuminations of intellect,
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you now perceive ' a something than
beauty dearer. '"
The admiration of what Rose consider- ,
ed the beautiful in person, and which fre. <<
quentlyled her to form erroneous opinions
and partialities, and, when it did not meet
her eye, to take as unjust prejudices, had
not escaped the penetration of Mrs. Falk-
land, who, one morning when Fanny and
her uncle were gone out . riding, and she,
with the rest of the party, had strolled into
the woods, andhad taken possession of one
of their favourite seats, good-humouredly
proposed herself as the subject of the morn-
ing; and like a fair heroine in romance,
relate her own history. Rose seated her-
self at her feat, with her arm. ? thrown
across her knees; and htjV; bright blue
eyes lifted up to her face; "Do, dear
Mrs. Falkland, tell us every thing about
yourself} we cannot have toomuchof asub-
ject we all so dearly love. " "But do you
think, Rose , you can be silent foranhour? "
O yes, for two if you are speaking. "
"I . will; try you then ; andyou shall hear
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** 27/e Narrative. of a Beauty" , _
"In spite of taf 'large noseV'n^libw
eyes, stinken mouth, and double chin, I
was a beauty in my youth. The menj who
crowded around me, swore that the fire
which illumined my eyes was stolen from
Heaven; that the smile which played
about my mouth was borrowed from the
Graces; that my teeth were pearls, and*
my dimple the cradle of Cupid. My
form, though now more than en bonpoint,
was then light and slender, and my move-
ments in the dance compared to the airy
gracefulness of a sylph. Observe me
now: I am not yet so old as to expect a
speedy summons to another world; yet,'
what remains of those charms which we
prize more than wisdom, which attract
the gaze of the young; and the adulation'
of the inexperienced, while we negleet the1
better qualities of the mind and heart;
qualities hot Only imperishable, but pro-
gressive in their state of excellence? Of
their value I was not convinced till late;
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ROSE ANJt> EMILY; OB,
perhaps not till the fragile forms of beau-
ty were beginning to decay.
** I had several brothers and one sister;
the latter was then in every respect a con-
trast to myself; awl the conscious superio-
rity of mypersonal advantages,sometimes
led me topractiseaspeciesaf petty triumph
? which I now blush to remember, and
which her gentle temper felt, but never
? resented. How often has her mild eye
pleaded for pity! How often have the
soft accents of her voice intrcated for-
bearance! while I, inflated with vanity,
and arrogant with pride, was insensible
to every appeal; and, mistaking raillery
for wit, directed its poisonous shafts
against an unoffending sister,onlybecause
I saw she was less handsome than myself! .
"My sister was simply called Fanny; I
was Margaret ? eraphin. a- My parents
had, from my infiincyv . (distinguished me
by the first name. ;. . but when I began to
read romances, . and; fancied myself suffi-
ciently beautiful to become tile heroine of
one* J begged them adopt . the latter
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appellation; for who ever heard of a lovely
an angelic Margaret? But Seraphina
sounded heavenly! My father smiled, tny
mother approved, and from that moment
I became Seraphina. I had the name
marked at full length upon my handker-
chiefs, written on my visiting cards, and
engraven on my seal; but what extacy
did I experience, on first reading in our
provincial paper, ' A Sonnet to Seraphi-
na! ' for in those days I had sonnets to
my beauty, elegies on my cruelty, and
epigrams on my wit.
"While my sister was in the morning
pursuing with my father, in his library, a
course of intellectual study,I was with my
mother debating on the most becoming
fashion of a hat or gown, and practising
the little airs and graces which 1 intended
to display in the evening*' ;? . ?
"Fanny was enthusiastically fond of
music as a science, and excelled on the
piano; I liked it as a fashion,. ahd because
it varied my powers of attraction; as these
were my sole objectsin the study, I soon
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resigned the piano for the harp, which af-
forded me a finer opportunity of displaying
mywhitearms and graceful figure ; totally
indifferent to the performance, I only
wished to look a St. Cecilia, and I always
found spectators,though I might not boast
of listeners. The young men fluttered
around me with exclamations ofc divine!
charming! ' I attracted through the me-
dium of sight, but Fanny rivetted every
ear, and won the plaudits of science,taste,
and feeling. Webothsung; themovement
of my rosy lips charmed the eye, while
Fanny's voice touched every heart. We
danced; and in this accomplishment my
triumph was complete. I bounded, flew;
and all the soul I had rose in the mazes of
a dance; while Fanny, timidly retiring. . :
from observation, would frequently plead
lassitude to escape from,whatshethought,
an exhibition of her person; 1 You may
dance, Serqjhina,' she would say, 'you
ought to dance; but //--/ am happier
in my father's library, or when I play and
sing to him. '
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"Such were we, when Henry Belmont
Was introduced to our family. He had
passed through the career of the schools
with unremitting diligence, and had left
the university crowned with literary ho-
nours and unblemished reputation. He
had just been presented to a valuable
living in our neighbourhood, and his cha-
racter rendered my father desirous of his
friendship* To the superior distinctions
of a well. educated man, he united the
graceful elegance of a fashionable one.
His conversation marked both the scholar
and the gentleman. With my parents he
was serious and respectful, yet always
easy ; with us he was more lively and ani-
mated; yet, accustomed as I had been
to conquest, for the first time in my life
I felt doubtful of pleasing: and while I
listened to his conversation, I was even
awed into silence, even forgot I was a
beauty. My glass, however, soon recall-
ed me to a sense of my charms, and I
dressed myself with more than my usual
solicitude.
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? 238 pose arft> emily; or,
"At dinner he was placed opposite me,
and by the side of Fanny. I directed my
? whole artillery of attractions against him,
and hoped for my usual success: but he
appeared equally regardless of my lan-
guishings or mysmiles,myplaintivetones,
or my sallies of sportiveness; and as he
conversed with my sister, I observed he
/ even bent over her with an attentive
gaze. I felt stung with dnvy$and mentally
enquired, 'in what personal attraction can
Fanny compare with me? The colour of
her eyes was undecided; it is true they
were shaded by long. dark eye-lashes which
gave them a mild and pleasing expression;
her mouth was not small, but her teeth
were white and even; her nose was a.
little
retrousse; her complexion brown, though
clear; and her form possessed neither
the lightness nor the symmetry of mine.
As he led her to the instrument, I saw
that he pressed her hand; and when she
arose to give place to another lady, im-
printed a kiss upon it. Fanny's modest
eye sunk to the ground and her 4 eloquent
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blood spokeinher:cheeks,'at this instance
of tender gallantry! I had often received
the same compliment, but never with the
same respect; and my heart again invo-
luntarily enquired, 'In what ts my younger
sister my superior, that she thus engages
the attention^ and wins the admiration of
the only man from whomlsliould be proud
to receive them? ' My vanity had hitherto
been flattered, my self-love gratified; I
had been pleased with those who did
homage to my beauty. ; but 'had never
entertained a sentiment of respect for
any one; Belmont alone had inspired me
with it, and he Was insensible to my
charms, and attracted by my sister!
"On retiring to rest, Fanny, as usual,
stopped at the door of my apartment to
? wish me good-night, and give the parting
kiss of peace and rove ; she had stretched
out her arms to embrace me; I shrunk
from them, and coldlysaid, 'Good-night. '
'Only good-night,' she exclaimed;'my Se-
raphina, my dear Seraphina! What have I
done, how have I offended, that thus you
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would part from me? I implore you to tell
me;' and she held out the hand which Bel-
mont had kissed ; I flung it from me, and
rushing into my chamber,bolted the door.
In vain she intreated for admittance, and
I heard her sigh deeply as she passed
along the gallery into her own room.
"Alone, apd all silent around me, I
began to reflect upon my conduct. It was
the first time I had ever seriously com-
muned with my own heart, "and it rose in
reproaches against me. Though I had
. sometimes indulged myself in ridiculing
Fanny,it proceeded more from a desire of
appearing lively and witty, than from ab-
solutely considering her an object of such
unfeeling sport; and the gentle manner
in which she always received my jests, had,
in spite of my self-love, endeared her the
more closely to my affcctioiis. In the ad-
justment of my dress, how solicitous she
had always proved herself; and would
hasten to complete her own to assist in
mine; howunretorting at my petulance;
how consoling when any disappointment
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corroded my spirits; how kind,liow placid'
at all times; she seemed to live but for
the happiness and blessing of others.
How submissive had she always been
under that neglect which would have
morthied, have maddened me; how
readily yielded to me the dominijn of
captivating without a murmur or a sigh;
end now, the only man whose attentions
had ever been pointedly directed to her,
I was ambitions of attaching to myself!
"Though my temper was naturally vio-
lent,from having been always uncontroul-
ed, and though I was impatient under any
disappointment,my heart wasneither cold
nor unfeeling; and as these reflections
pressed upon my mind, I burst into tears,
and wished to seek and ask forgiveness of
my;gentleFanny,for the caprice and injus-
ticeof my conduct. I stole out of myroom
and tapped at her door; she opened it
immediately, and I threw myself into her
arms. 'I have been unjust, my Fanny, un-
kind, capricious,ridiculous! Will you par-
don me r' 'Can Seraphina doubt it? 1 will
not even enquire the cause, lest it should
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t>e more lastingly remembered; it is
enoughthatyou regretit. 1 wasconvmced,
my sister, that you could not be happy^
whatever was the circumstance in which
your error originated; I therefore expect-
ed this visit, and have continued to read
in the hope of seeing you. ' I telt humbled
that she shouldimpute error to mc, though
1 was but too conscious of it myself, and
was leaving the room without a reply. She
threw her arms round me ; and the tender
pressure of her lips to mine, the sweet tone
in which she pronounced 'God bless you! '
as she raised her soft eyes to Heaven, re-
stored me wholly to her--' God bless my
sister! ' we each repeated, and separated.
"I felt consoled as I returned to my
chamber, that we were reconciled without
my having experienced the humiliation of
any direct avowal of my folly ; but I was
astonished and mortified when I reflected
upon the composure of her manner; and
that she could quietly read, whilst I had
been tortured by conflicting emotions;
but such are ever the advantages which
well-regulated minds have over those that
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yield to every instant impulse. Fanny had
left me in sorrow; but from the conscious
rectitude of her own heart, she had de-
rived peace and comfort, and she had
wept only for me.
"At breakfast we met as usual. On the
countenance of Fanny I observed an ex-
pression of even more than customary
cheerfulness. After breakfast she said she
wished to remain all the morning in her
own apartment, without interruption, as
she was desirous of completing a drawing
she had begun.
"Belmont was introduced; I only was
with my mother. He enquired for Fanny,
and was told she was particularly engaged,
and had desired not to be interrupted. I
remarked a sudden shade pass over his
iine countenance, and he appeared for a
minute thoughtful and disappointed; but,
turning to me, who was employed at a
tambour frame, not so much for the uti-
lity or ornament of the work, as to display
my white arms in a graceful attitude; he
enquired if we had a good neighbourhood,
arfid introduced several local subjects
M2
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which I was able to answer with a degree
of ease and vivacity I hoped lie would
think enchanting.
"It is said by Dr. Johnson, that * many
people can talk, but few can converse. '' I
wasone of the talkers. Onsubjectsof gene-
ral currency, such as dress, public amuse-
ments, and the weather, my observations
were as ingenious and as correct as those
of others. I could also laugh at my young
friends, and had a manner of ridiculing
their peculiarities, which seldom railed
to divert my male auditors. I could pro-
pose many charades, and sometimes find
a solution for one; I had even a few fine
sentiments on love and friendship, and
though they had been so often repeated,
as now seldom to be listened to, yet Bel-
mont had never heard them, and they
wereready to be advanced on the slightest
command; but when any subjects Mere
discussed, which required the exertion of
reason, or the powers of imagination, I
was unable to take a part, and left the
field to Fanny; always finding, in my re-
treat, many of both sexes, who wer>>
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equally desirous of being spared an expo-
sure of their intellectual poverty.
"The chat of the' day, and the descrip-
tion of our society, seemed but little to
interest Belmont, though, had he appear-
ed to listen with approbation, it would
have afforded me an inexhaustible fund
of talk; but, at the first pause which my
pretty lips made, he enquired if we had
an extensive circulating library; ^f the
books were well chosen; or if novels, as
is generally the case, occupied every
shelf? 'There are only novels,' I re-
plied. 'I suppose,' he continued, * that
Mr. Falkland's library supplies you with .
so many superior productions, you have
not often recourse to the public one; for
novels, however they may occasionally
amuse an idle hour, or relieve a gloomy
one, yet they certainly, (if indulged in too
much). enervate the mind, and destroydts;
relish for works of reasoning and infbrmi- .
tion. ' A blush of shamestole over njy face
at this remark, for I had scarcely read any
other volumes than ;those of the circula-
ting library ; and my father's books, since
M 3 . ,
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I had selected for myself, had been
quite neglected. *' Do you admire
poetry? ' he said. r O, passionately! ' I
exclaimed. 'Of what kind? ' * Sonnets
I doat upon; but verse of all descrip-
tions I adore. ' I thought he smiled, but
I was glad of an opportunity of exhibi.
ting a rapture, of appearing enthusiastic.
'Perhaps, Miss Falkland,' he said, ' you
sometimes are poetical? For I think
there seldom exists this very high relish
for poetry, without some inclination to
poetize. ' 'I do not often write,* I re-
plied, in a half tone of retiring modesty.
1 Sometimes then you do,' he answered
with vivacity; 'might I be so honoured
as to see any of your compositions? I
am an humble votary of the muses my-
self, and should rejoice to rind a kindred
mind. " A deep crimson now flushed my
cheek; I had strayed into the path of
falsehood, and I knew not how to re-
treat; but the wish to appear captiva-
ting. to Belmont, to evince . that 'kin-
deed mind' he so desired to meet, urged
me still further, and I took from nvy
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portfolio some lines which Fanny had
addressed to me. As he read them, his
fine eyes were lighted up with extacy.
* They are beautiful T he exclaimed;
how tender, how elegant the sentiment!
how the soul of the sister breathes in
every line! how perfect is friendship
when thus cemented by consanguinity! '
He respectfully pressed iny hand as he
returned the lines, but he imt ri iied no
kiss upon it; yet he continued to gaze
upon me with an expression of astonish-
ment and admiration that perplexed,
while it delighted me. I still pursued my
work, for confusion prevented my look-
ing up. 'Be not so diffident,' he whis-
pered; 'but real merit is always so; let
me entreat you to cultivate this truly
poetical talent; for my own part, I am
so warm an admirer of it, that no pilgrim
ever paid his devotions with more zeal to
his patron saint, than I mine to the
shrine of true poetry. ' ;. 4 ? . . ;
"Oh 1 had I really merited his eulo-
gium, I should have been indeed blest-
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ed; but I painfully experienced that--
'Praise umleserv'd, is satire iu disguise;' .
and I felt myself only an object of ridi-
cule and contempt. The praise was just-
ly Fanny's, and as this reflection press-
ed upon my mind, feelings even of envy
corroded my bosom. He had not once
complimented my beauty; not once re-
quested me to sing or play; but this
poetical effusion. of affection and genius
enraptured him; it was Fanny still who
charmed!
"I ventured at length to entreat him
to favour me with some of his produc-
tions, and he promised to bring his ma-
nuscripts the next day. He remained
with lis till the hour of dressing for din-
ner, and as he rose to take leaver he
said--* Since I shall not have the plea-
sure of seeing your sister . to-day, may I
request you to give, with my respectful
compliments, this song, which I promised
her to bring; flattering myself, at the
same time^ that s*h'e would? h^e permit-
ted me to have practised it tfith&ef. this
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morning; but,' he added, with a smile
which I had penetration- enough to dis!
coyer' was designed. to conceal a sensa-
tion of mortification, * ladies must be
allowed to forget their promises, though
politeness, if not honour, commands that
we. should remember. ours. '
** It was now too evident that he was
piqued^ 'Ah, then! ' I said to myself, . .
* Fanny was informed of this visit, and
hate purposely absented herself; she has
read my heart; she has resigned him to
me. >> Generous, noble girl! and /--I
have added duplicity to vanity; he will
despise me; I despise myself. ". .
"I went to. my own apartment with .
