In her talons
earnestly
she grasps Sade's 120 Days and the Ante- rotica of Aliosha G.
Samuel Beckett
Was it not from sitting still among his ideas, other people's ideas, that he had come away?
What would he not give now to get on the move again!
Away from ideas!
Turning aside from this and other no less futile em- blems, his attention was arrested by a wheel-chair being pushed rapidly under the arcade of the Bank, in the di- rection of Dame Street. It moved in and out of sight behind the bars of the columns. This was the blind para- lytic who sat all day near to the corner of Fleet Street, and in bad weather under the shelter of the arcade, the same being wheeled home to his home in the Coombe. It was past his time and there was a bitter look on his face. He would give his chairman a piece of his mind when
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he got him to himself. This chairman, hireling or poor relation, came every evening a little before the dark, unfastened from the beggar's neck and breast the placard announcing his distress, tucked him up snugly in his coverings and wheeled him home to his supper. He was well advised to be assiduous, for this beggar was a power in the Coombe. In the morning it was his duty to shave his man and wheel him, according to the weather, to one or other of his pitches. So it went, day after day.
This was a star the horizon adorning if you like, and Belacqua made off at all speed in the opposite direction. Down Pearse Street, that is to say, long straight Pearse Street, its vast Barrack of Glencullen granite, its home of tragedy restored and enlarged, its coal merchants and Florentine Fire Brigade Station, its two Cervi saloons, ice-cream and fried fish, its dairies, garages and monu- mental sculptors, and implicit behind the whole length of its southern frontage the College. Perpetuis futuris temporibus duraturum. It was to be hoped so, indeed.
It was a most pleasant street, despite its name, to be abroad in, full as it always was with shabby substance and honest-to-God coming and going. All day the road- way was a tumult of buses, red and blue and silver. By one of these a little girl was run down, just as Belacqua drew near to the railway viaduct. She had been to the Hibernian Dairies for milk and bread and then she had plunged out into the roadway, she was in such a child- ish fever to get back in record time with her treasure to the tenement in Mark Street where she lived. The good milk was all over the road and the loaf, which had sustained no injury, was sitting up against the kerb, for all the world as though a pair of hands had taken it up and set it down there. The queue standing for the Palace Cinema was torn between conflicting desires: to
keep their places and to see the excitement. They craned their necks and called out to know the worst, but they stood firm. Only one girl, debauched in appearance and swathed in a black blanket, fell out near the sting of the queue and secured the loaf. With the loaf under her blanket she sidled unchallenged down Mark Street and turned into Mark Lane. When she got back to the queue her place had been taken of course. But her sally had not cost her more than a couple of yards.
Belacqua turned left into Lombard Street, the street of the sanitary engineers, and entered a public house. Here he was known, in the sense that his grotesque exterior had long ceased to alienate the curates and make them giggle, and to the extent that he was served with his drink with- out having to call for it. This did not always seem a privilege. He was tolerated, what was more, and let alone by the rough but kindly habitues of the house, recruited for the most part from among dockers, railwaymen and vague joxers on the dole. Here also art and love, scrab- bling in dispute or staggering home, were barred, or, per- haps better, unknown. The aesthetes and the impotent were far away.
These circumstances combined to make of this place a very grateful refuge for Belacqua, who never omitted, when he found himself in its neighbourhood with the price of a drink about him, to pay it a visit.
When I enquired how he squared such visits with his anxiety to keep on the move and his distress at finding himself brought to a standstill, as when he had come out of the underground in the mouth of College Street, he re- plied that he did not. "Surely" he said "my resolution has the right to break down. " I supposed so indeed. "Or" he said "if you prefer, I make the raid in two hops instead of non-stop. From what" he cried "does that disqualify
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me, I should very much like to know. " I hastened to assure him that he had a perfect right to suit himself in what, after all, was a manuoeuvre of his own contriving, and that the raid, to adopt his own term, lost nothing by being made in easy stages. "Easy! " he exclaimed, "how easy? "
But notice the double response, like two holes to a burrow.
Sitting in this crapulent den, drinking his drink, he gradually ceased to see its furnishings with pleasure, the bottles, representing centuries of loving research, the stools, the counter, the powerful screws, the shining pha- lanx of the pulls of the beer-engines, all cunningly devised and elaborated to further the relations between purveyor and consumer in this domain. The bottles drawn and emptied in a twinkling, the casks responding to the slight- est pressure on their joysticks, the weary proletarians at rest on arse and elbow, the cash register that never complains, the graceful curates flying from customer to customer, all this made up a spectacle in which Belacqua was used to take delight and chose to see a pleasant instance of machinery decently subservient to appetite. A great major symphony of supply and demand, effect and cause, fulcrate on the middle C of the counter and wax- ing, as it proceeded, in the charming harmonics of blas- phemy and broken glass and all the aliquots of fatigue and ebriety. So that he would say that the only place where he could come to anchor and be happy was a low public-house, and that all the wearisome tactics of gress and dud Beethoven would be done away with if only he could spend his life in such a place. But as they closed at ten, and as residence and good faith were viewed as incompatible, and as in any case he had not the means to consecrate his life to stasis, even in the meanest bar, he supposed he must be content to indulge this whim from
time to time, and return thanks for such sporadic mercy. All this and much more he laboured to make clear. He seemed to derive considerable satisfaction from his failure
to do so.
But on this particular occasion the cat failed to jump,
with the result that he became as despondent as though he were sitting at home in his own great armchair, as anxious to get on the move and quite as hard put to it to do so. Why this was he could not make out. Whether the trituration of the child in Pearse Street had upset him without his knowing it, or whether (and he put forward this alternative with a truly insufferable complacency) he had come to some parting of the ways, he did not know at all. All he could say was that the objects in which he was used to find such recreation and repose lost gradu- ally their hold upon him, he became insensible to them little by little, the old itch and algos crept back into his mind. He had come briskly all the way from Tommy Moore, and now he suddenly found himself sitting para- lysed and grieving in a pub of all places, good for noth- ing but to stare at his spoiling porter, and wait for a sign.
To this day he does not know what caused him to look up, but look up he did. Feeling the impulse to do this strong upon him, he forced his eyes away from the glass of dying porter and was rewarded by seeing a hat- less woman advancing slowly towards him up the body of the bar. No sooner had she come in than he must have become aware of her. That was surely very curious in the first instance. She seemed to be hawking some ware or other, but what it was he could not see, except that it was not studs or laces or matches or lavender or any of the usual articles. Not that it was unusual to find a woman in that public-house, for they came and went
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freely, slaking their thirst and beguiling their sorrows with no less freedom than their men-folk. Indeed it was al- ways a pleasure to see them, their advances were always most friendly and honourable, Belacqua had many a de- lightful recollection of their commerce.
Hence there was no earthly reason why he should see in the advancing figure of this mysterious pedlar anything untoward, or in the nature of the sign in default of which he was clamped to his stool till closing-time. Yet the impulse to do so was so strong that he yielded to it, and as she drew nearer, having met with more rebuffs than pence in her endeavours to dispose of her wares, what- ever they were, it became clear to him that his instinct had not played him false, in so far at least as she was a woman of very remarkable presence indeed.
Her speech was that of a woman of the people, but of a gentlewoman of the people. Her gown had served its time, but yet contrived to be respectable. He noticed with a pang that she sported about her neck the insidious little mock fur so prevalent in tony slumland. The one deplorable feature of her get up, as apprehended by Belacqua in his hasty survey, was the footwear—the cruel strait outsizes of the suffragette or welfare worker. But he did not doubt for a moment that they had been a
gift, or picked up in the pop for a song. She was of more than average height and well in flesh. She might be past middle-age. But her face, ah her face, was what Belacqua had rather refer to as her countenance, it was so full of light. This she lifted up upon him and no error. Brimful of light and serene, serenissime, it bore no trace of suffering, and in this alone it might be said to be a notable face. Yet like tormented faces that he had seen, like the face in the National Gallery in Merrion Square by the Master of Tired Eyes, it seemed to have come a long way and subtend an
infinitely narrow angle of affliction, as eyes focus a star. The features were null, only luminous, impassive and secure, petrified in radiance, or words to that effect, for the reader is requested to take notice that this sweet style is Belacqua's. An act of expression, he said, a wreathing or wrinkling, could only have had the effect of a dimmer on a headlight. The implications of this triumphant figure, the
just and the unjust, etc. , are better forgone.
At long last she addressed herself to Belacqua.
"Seats in heaven" she said in a white voice "tuppence
apiece, four fer a tanner. "
"No" said Belacqua. It was the first syllable to come to
his lips. It had not been his intention to deny her.
"The best of seats" she said "again I'm sold out. Tup-
pence apiece the best of seats, four fer a tanner. "
This was unforeseen with a vengeance, if not exactly vaudeville. Belacqua was embarrassed in the last degree, but transported also. He felt the sweat coming in the small
of his back, above his Montrouge belt.
"Have you got them on you? " he mumbled.
"Heaven goes round" she said, whirling her arm, "and
round and round and round and round and round. " "Yes" said Belacqua "round and round. "
"Rowan" she said, dropping the d's and getting more of
a spin into the slogan, "rowan an' rowan an' rowan. " Belacqua scarcely knew where to look. Unable to blush he came out in this beastly sweat. Nothing of the kind had ever happened to him before. He was altogether disarmed, unsaddled and miserable. The eyes of them all, the dockers, the railwaymen and, most terrible of all, the joxers, were upon him. His tail drooped. This female dog
of a pixy with her tiresome Ptolemy, he was at her mercy. "No" he said "no thank you, no not this evening thank
you. "
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"Again I'm sold out" she said "an buked out, four fer a tanner. "
"On whose authority Scholar.
. .
. " began Belacqua, like a
"For yer frien' " she said "yer da, yer ma an' yer motte, four fer a tanner. " The voice ceased, but the face did not abate.
"How do I know" piped Belacqua "you're not sellin' me a pup? "
"Heaven goes rowan an' rowan
. "
"Rot you" said Belacqua "I'll take two. How much is that? "
"Four dee" she said.
Belacqua gave her a sixpence.
"Gobbless yer honour" she said, in the same white voice
from which she had not departed. She made to go. "Here" cried Belacqua "you owe me twopence. " He had
not even the good grace to say tuppence.
"Arragowan" she said "make it four cantcher, yer frien',
yer da, yer ma an' yer motte. "
Belacqua could not bicker. He had not the strength of
mind for that. He turned away.
"Jesus" she said distinctly "and his sweet mother pre-
serve yer honour. "
"Amen" said Belacqua, into his dead porter.
Now the woman went away and her countenance
lighted her to her room in Townsend Street.
But Belacqua tarried a little to listen to the music. Then
he also departed, but for Railway Street, beyond the river.
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A Wet Night
JlTark, it is the season of festivity and goodwill. Shop- ping is in full swing, the streets are thronged with revel- lers, the Corporation has offered a prize for the best- dressed window, Hyam's trousers are down again.
Mistinguett would do away with chalets of necessity. She does not think them necessary. Not so Belacqua. Emerging happy body from the hot bowels of Mc- Louglin's he looked up and admired the fitness of Moore's bull neck, not a whit too short, with all due respect to the critics. Bright and cheery above the strom of the Green, as though coached by the Star of Bethlehem, the Bovril sign danced and danced through its seven phases.
The lemon of faith jaundiced, annunciating the series, was in a fungus of hopeless green reduced to shingles and abolished. Whereupon the light went out, in homage to the slain. A sly ooze of gules, carmine of solicitation, lift- ing the skirts of green that the prophecy might be fulfilled, shocking Gabriel into cherry, flooded the sign. But the long skirts came rattling down, darkness covered their shame, the cycle was at an end. Da capo.
Bovril into Salome, thought Belacqua, and Tommy Moore there with his head on his shoulders. Doubt, Des- pair and Scrounging, shall I hitch my bath-chair to the greatest of these? Across the way, beneath the arcade, the blind paralytic was in position, he was well tucked up in
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his coverings, he was lashing into his dinner like any proletarian. Soon his man would come and wheel him home. No one had ever seen him come or go, he was there one minute and gone the next. He went and returned. When you scrounge you must go and return, that was the first great article of Christian scrounging. No man could settle down to scrounge properly in a foreign land. The Wanderjahre were a sleep and a forgetting, the proud dead point. You came back wise and staked your beat in some sheltered place, pennies trickled in, you were looked up to in a tenement.
Belacqua had been proffered a sign, Bovril had made him a sign.
Whither next? To what licensed premises? To where the porter was well up, first; and the solitary shawly like a cloud of latter rain in a waste of poets and politicians, second; and he neither knew nor was known, third. A lowly house dear to shawlies where the porter was up and he could keep himself to himself on a high stool with a high round and feign to be immersed in the Moscow notes of the Twilight Herald. These were very piquant.
Of the two houses that appealed spontaneously to these exigencies the one, situate in Merrion Row, was a home from home for jarveys. As some folk from hens, so Belac- qua shrank from jarveys. Rough, gritty, almost verminous men. From Moore to Merrion Row, moreover, was a peril- ous way, beset at this hour with poets and peasants and politicians. The other lay in Lincoln Place, he might go gently by Pearse Street, there was nothing to stop him. Long straight Pearse Street, it permitted of a simple can- tilena in his mind, its footway peopled with the tranquil and detached in fatigue, its highway dehumanised in a tumult of buses. Trams were monsters, moaning along be- neath the wild gesture of the trolley. But buses were
pleasant, tires and glass and clash and no more. Then to pass by the Queens, home of tragedy, was charming at that hour, to pass between the old theatre and the long line of the poor and lowly queued up for thruppence worth of pictures. For there Florence would slip into the song, the Piazza della Signoria and the No 1 tram and the Feast of St John, when they lit the torches of resin on the towers and the children, while the rockets at nightfall above the Cascine were still flagrant in their memory, opened the little cages to the glutted cicadae after their long confinement and stayed out with their young parents long after their usual bedtime. Then slowly in his mind down the sinister Uffizi to the parapets of Arno, and so on and so forth. This pleasure was dispensed by the Fire Station opposite which seemed to have been copied here and there from the Palazzo Vecchio. In deference to Sa- vonarola? Ha! Ha! At all events it was as good a way as any other to consume the Homer hour, darkness filling the streets and so on, and a better than most in virtue of his great thirst towards the lowly house that would snatch him in off the street through the door of its grocery de- partment if by good fortune that were still open.
Painfully then under the College ramparts, past the smart taxis, he set off, clearing his mind for its song. The Fire Station worked without a hitch and all was going as well as could be expected considering what the evening held in pickle for him when the blow fell. He was run plump into by one Chas, a highbrow bromide of French nationality with a diabolical countenance compound of Skeat's and Paganini's and a mind like a tattered concord- ance. It was Chas who would not or could not leave well alone, Belacqua being rapt in his burning feet and the line of the song in his head.
"Halte-la" piped the pirate, "whither so gay? "
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In the lee of the Monumental Showroom Belacqua was obliged to pause and face this machine. It carried butter and eggs from the Hibernian Dairy. Belacqua however was not to be drawn.
"Ramble" he said vaguely "in the twilight. "
"Just a song" said Chas "at twilight. No? "
Belacqua tormented his hands in the gloom. Had he
been blocked on his way and violated in the murmur of his mind to listen to this clockwork Bartlett? Apparently.
"How's the world" he said nevertheless, in spite of everything, "and what's the news of the great world? "
"Fair" said Chas, cautiously, "fair to meedling. The poem moves, eppure. "
If he mentions ars longa, Belacqua made this covenant with himself, he will have occasion to regret it.
"Limae labor' said Chas "et mora! '
"Well" said Belacqua, casting off with clean hands, "see you again. "
"But shortly, I thrrust" cried Chas, "casa Frica, dis col- lied night. No? "
"Alas" said Belacqua, well adrift.
Behold the Frica, she visits talent in the Service Flats. In she lands, singing Havelock Ellis in a deep voice, frankly itching to work that which is not seemly. Open upon her concave breast as on a lectern lies Portigliotti's Penombre Claustrali, bound in tawed caul.
In her talons earnestly she grasps Sade's 120 Days and the Ante- rotica of Aliosha G. Brignole-Sale, unopened, bound in shagreened caul. A septic pudding hoodwinks her, a stodgy turban of pain it laps her horse face. The eyehole is clogged with the bulbus, the round pale globe goggles exposed. Solitary meditation has furnished her with nos- trils of generous bore. The mouth champs an invisible bit, foam gathers at the bitter commissures. The crateriform
brisket, lipped with sills of paunch, cowers ironically be- hind a maternity tunic. Keyholes have wrung the un- friendly withers, the osseous rump screams behind the hobble-skirt. Wastes of woad worsted advertise the pas- terns. Aie!
This in its absinthe whinny had bidden Belacqua and, what is more, the Alba, to backstairs, claret cup and the intelligentsia. The Alba, Belacqua's current one and only, had much pleasure in accepting for her scarlet gown and broad pale bored face. The belle of the ball. Aie!
But seldom one without two and scarcely had Chas been shed than lo from out the Grosvenor sprang the homespun Poet wiping his mouth and a little saprophile of an anonymous politico-ploughboy setting him off. The Poet sucked his teeth over this unexpected pleasure. The golden eastern lay of his bullet head was muted by no covering. Beneath the Wally Whitmaneen of his Donegal tweeds a body was to be presumed. He gave the impres- sion of having lost a harrow and found a figure of speech. Belacqua was numbed.
"Drink" decreed the Poet in a voice of thunder.
Belacqua slunk at his heels into the Grosvenor, the gim- let eyes of the saprophile probed his loins.
"Now" exulted the Poet, as though he had just brought an army across the Beresina, "give it a name and knock it back. "
"Pardon me" stuttered Belacqua "just a moment, will you be so kind. " He waddled out of the bar and into the street and up it at all speed and into the lowly public through the groceries door like a bit of dirt into a Hoover. This was a rude thing to do. When intimidated he was rude beyond measure, not timidly insolent like Stendhal's Comte de Thaler, but finally rude on the sly. Timidly in- solent when, as by Chas, exasperated; finally rude on the
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sly when intimidated, outrageously rude behind the back of his oppressor. This was one of his little peculiarities.
He bought a paper of a charming little sloven, no but a truly exquisite little page, a freelance clearly, he would not menace him, he skipped in on his miry bare feet with only three or four under his oxter for sale. Belacqua gave him a thruppenny bit and a cigarette picture. He sat to himself on a stool in the central leaf of the main triptych, his feet on a round so high that his knees topped the curb of the counter (admirable posture for man with weak bladder and tendency to ptosis of viscera), drank despondent porter(buthedarednotbudge) anddevouredthepaper.
"A woman" he read with a thrill "is either: a short- below-the-waist, a big-hip, a sway-back, a big-abdomen or an average. If the bust be too cogently controlled, then shall fat roll from scapula to scapula. If it be made pass- able and slight, then shall the diaphragm bulge and be un- sightly. Why not therefore invest chez a reputable corset- builder in the brassiere-cum-corset decollete, made from the finest Broches, Coutils and Elastics, centuple stitched in wearing parts, fitted with immovable spiral steels? It bestows stupendous diaphragm and hip support, it en-
. "
be classified. Not to be corseted. Not woman of flesh.
The face on the curate faded away and Grock's ap-
peared in its stead.
"Say that again" said the red gash in the white putty. Belacqua said it all and much more.
"Nisscht mddddoodglich" moaned Grock, and was gone. Now Belacqua began to worry lest the worst should
come to the worst and the scarlet gown be backless after
hances the sleeveless backless neckless evening gown
O Love! O Fire! but would the scarlet gown lack all these parts? Was she a short-below or a sway-back? She had no waist, nor did she deign to sway. She was not to
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all. Not that he had any doubts as to the back thus bared being a sight for sore eyes. The omoplates would be well defined, they would have a fine free ball-and-socket mo- tion. In repose they would be the blades of an anchor, the delicate furrow of the spine its stem. His mind pored over this back that inspired him with awe. He saw it as a flower-de-luce, a spatulate leaf with segments angled back, like the wings of a butterfly sucking a blossom, from their common hinge. Then, fetching from further afield, as an obelisk, a cross-potent, pain and death, still death, a bird crucified on a wall. This flesh and bones swathed in scar- let, this heart of washed flesh draped in scarlet. . . .
Unable to bear any longer his doubt as to the rig of the gown he passed through the counter and got her house on the telephone.
"Dressing" said the maid, the Venerilla, his friend and bawd to be, "and spitting blood. "
No, she could not be got down, she had been up in her room cursing and swearing for the past hour.
'Tm afeared of me gizzard" said the voice "to go near her. "
"Is it closed at the back? " demanded Belacqua "or is it open? "
"Is what? "
"The gown" cried Belacqua, "what else? Is it closed? " The Venerilla requested him to hold on while she called
it to the eye of the mind. The objurgations of this ineffable member were clearly audible.
"Would it be the red one? " she said, after countless ages.
"The scarlet bloody gown of course" he cried out of his torment, "do you not know? "
. "
"Hold on now. . . . It buttons
"Buttons? What buttons? "
"It buttons ups behind, sir, with the help of God. "
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"Say it again" implored Belacqua, "over and over again. "
"Amn't I after saying" groaned the Venerilla "it buttons ups on her. "
"Praise be to God" said Belacqua "and his blissful Mother. "
Calm now and sullen the Alba, dressed insidiously up to the nines, bides her time in the sunken kitchen, paying no heed to her fool and foil who has made bold to lay open Belacqua's distress. She is in pain, her brandy is at hand, mulling in the big glass on the range. Behind her frontage abandoned in elegance, sagging in its elegance and clouded in its native sorrow, a more anxious rite than sumptuous meditation is in progress. For her mind is at prayer-stool before a perhaps futile purpose, she is loading the spring of her mind for a perhaps unimportant under-
taking. Letting her outside rip pro tern she is screwing herself up and up, she is winding up the weights of her mind, to being the belle of the ball, banquet or party. Any less beautiful girl would have contemned such tactics and considered this class of absorption at the service of so simple an occasion unwarranted and, what was worse, a sad give away. Here am I, a less bountiful one would have argued, the belle, and there is the ball; let these two items be brought together and the thing is done. Are we then to insinuate, with such a simplist, that the Alba ques- tioned the virtue of her appearance. Indeed and indeed we are not. She had merely to unleash her eyes, she had merely to unhood them, as well she knew, and she might have mercy on whom she would. There was no difficulty about that. But what she did question, balefully, as though she knew the answer in advance, was the fitness of a dis-
tinction hers for the asking, of a palm that she had merely to open her eyes and assume. That the simplicity of the
gest turned her in the first place against it, relegating it among the multitude of things that were not her genre, is indisputable. But this was only a minute aspect of her po- sition. It is with the disparagement attaching in the thought of Belacqua, and in hers tending to, to the quality of the exploit that she now wrestles. It is with its no doubt unworthiness that she now has to do. Sullen and still, aware of the brandy at hand but not thirsting for it, she cranks herself up to a reality of preference, slowly but surely she gilds her option, she exalts it into realms of choice. She will do this thing, she will be belle of the ball, gladly, gravely and carefully, humiliter, fideliter, simplici- ter, and not merely because she might just as well. Is she, she a woman of the world, she who knows, to halt be- tween two opinions, founder in a strait of two wills, hang in suspense and be the more killed? She who knows? So far from such nonsense she will soon chafe to be off. And now she dare, until it be time, the clock strike, delegate a portion of her attention with instructions to reorganise her features, hands, shoulders, back, outside in a word, the in-
side having been spiked. At once she thirsts for the Hen- nessy. She sings to herself, for her own pleasure, stressing all the words that cry for stress, like Dan the first to warble without fear or favour:
No me jodas en el suelo Como si fuera una perra, Que con esos cojonazos Me echas en el cono tierra.
The Polar Bear, a big old brilliant lecher, was already on his way, speeding along the dark dripping country roads in a crass honest slob of a clangorous bus, engaging with the effervescent distinction of a Renaissance cardinal
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in rather languid tongue-play an acquaintance of long standing, a Jesuit with little or no nonsense about him.
"The Lebensbahn" he was saying, for he never used the English word when the foreign pleased him better, "of the Galilean is the tragi-comedy of the solipsism that will not capitulate. The humilities and retro mes and quaffs of sir- reverence are on a par with the hey presto's, arrogance and egoism. He is the first great self-contained playboy. The cryptic abasement before the woman taken red-handed is as great a piece of megalomaniacal impertinence as his interference in the affairs of his boy-friend Lazarus. He opens the series of slick suicides, as opposed to the serious Empedoclean variety. He has to answer for the wretched Nemo and his corates, bleeding in paroxysms of depit on an unimpressed public. "
He coughed up a plump cud of mucus, spun it round the avid bowl of his palate and stowed it away for future degustation.
The S. J. with little or no nonsense had just enough strength to voice his fatigue.
"If you knew" he said "how you bore me with your twice two is four. "
The P. B. failed to get him.
"You bore me" drawled the S. J. "worse than an infant prodigy. " He paused to recruit his energies. "In his hairless voice" he proceeded "preferring the druggist Borodin to Mozart. "
"Bv all accounts" retorted the P. B. "your sweet Mozart was a Hexenmeister in the pilch. "
That was a nasty one, let him make what he liked of that one.
"Our Lord
"
"Speak for yourself" said the P. B. , nettled beyond en- durance.
"Our Lord was not. "
"You forget" said the P. B. , "he got it all over at procrea- tion. "
"When you grow up to be a big boy" said the Jesuit "and can understand the humility that is beyond masoch- ism, come and talk to me again. Not cis-, ultra-masochistic. Beyond pain and service. "
"But precisely" exclaimed the P. B. , "he did not serve, the late lamented. What else am I saying? A valet does not have big ideas. He let down the central agency. "
"The humility" murmured the janizary "of a love too great for skivvying and too real to need the tonic of urtica- tion. "
The infant prodigy sneered at this comfortable variety.
"You make things pleasant for yourselves" he sneered, "I must say. "
"The best reason" said the S. J. "that can be given for believing is that it is more amusing. Disbelief" said the soldier of Christ, making ready to arise "is a bore. We do not count our change. We simply cannot bear to be bored. "
"Say that from the pulpit" said the P. B. "and you'll be drummed into the wilderness. "
The S. J. laughed profusely. Was it possible to conceive a more artless impostor of a mathematician than this fel- low!
"Would you" he begged, putting his greatcoat on, "would you, my dear good fellow, have the kindness to bear in mind that I am not a Parish Priest. "
"I won't forget" said the P. B. "that you don't scavenge. Your love is too great for the slops. "
"Egg-sactly" said the S. J. "But they are excellent men. A shade on the assiduous side, a shade too anxious to strike
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. " He rose. "Observe" he said, "I desire
a rate. Otherwise
to get down. I pull this cord and the bus stops and lets me down. "
The P. B. observed.
"In just such a Gehenna of links" said this remarkable man, with one foot on the pavement, "I forged my voca- tion. "
With which words he was gone and the burden of his fare had fallen on the P. B.
Chas's girl was a Shetland Shawly. He had promised to pick her up on his way to Casa Frica and now, cinched beyond reproach in his double-breasted smoking, he sub- dued his impatience to catch a tram in order to explain the world to a group of students.
"
"The difference, if I may say so
"Oh" cried the students, una voce, "oh please! "
"The difference, then, I say, between Bergson and Ein-
stein, the essential difference, is as between philosopher and sociolog. "
"Oh! " cried the students.
"Yes" said Chas, casting up what was the longest divul- gation he could place before the tram, which had hove into view, would draw abreast.
"And if it is the smart thing now to speak of Bergson as —
acod"—heedgedaway "itisthatwemovefromtheOb- —
ject"—he made a plunge for the tram "and the Idea to Sense"—he cried from the step "and Reason. "
"Sense" echoed the students "and reason! "
The difficulty was to know what exactly he meant by sense.
"He must mean senses'* said a first, "smell, don't you know, and so on. "
"Nay" said a second, "he must mean common sense. "
.
Turning aside from this and other no less futile em- blems, his attention was arrested by a wheel-chair being pushed rapidly under the arcade of the Bank, in the di- rection of Dame Street. It moved in and out of sight behind the bars of the columns. This was the blind para- lytic who sat all day near to the corner of Fleet Street, and in bad weather under the shelter of the arcade, the same being wheeled home to his home in the Coombe. It was past his time and there was a bitter look on his face. He would give his chairman a piece of his mind when
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he got him to himself. This chairman, hireling or poor relation, came every evening a little before the dark, unfastened from the beggar's neck and breast the placard announcing his distress, tucked him up snugly in his coverings and wheeled him home to his supper. He was well advised to be assiduous, for this beggar was a power in the Coombe. In the morning it was his duty to shave his man and wheel him, according to the weather, to one or other of his pitches. So it went, day after day.
This was a star the horizon adorning if you like, and Belacqua made off at all speed in the opposite direction. Down Pearse Street, that is to say, long straight Pearse Street, its vast Barrack of Glencullen granite, its home of tragedy restored and enlarged, its coal merchants and Florentine Fire Brigade Station, its two Cervi saloons, ice-cream and fried fish, its dairies, garages and monu- mental sculptors, and implicit behind the whole length of its southern frontage the College. Perpetuis futuris temporibus duraturum. It was to be hoped so, indeed.
It was a most pleasant street, despite its name, to be abroad in, full as it always was with shabby substance and honest-to-God coming and going. All day the road- way was a tumult of buses, red and blue and silver. By one of these a little girl was run down, just as Belacqua drew near to the railway viaduct. She had been to the Hibernian Dairies for milk and bread and then she had plunged out into the roadway, she was in such a child- ish fever to get back in record time with her treasure to the tenement in Mark Street where she lived. The good milk was all over the road and the loaf, which had sustained no injury, was sitting up against the kerb, for all the world as though a pair of hands had taken it up and set it down there. The queue standing for the Palace Cinema was torn between conflicting desires: to
keep their places and to see the excitement. They craned their necks and called out to know the worst, but they stood firm. Only one girl, debauched in appearance and swathed in a black blanket, fell out near the sting of the queue and secured the loaf. With the loaf under her blanket she sidled unchallenged down Mark Street and turned into Mark Lane. When she got back to the queue her place had been taken of course. But her sally had not cost her more than a couple of yards.
Belacqua turned left into Lombard Street, the street of the sanitary engineers, and entered a public house. Here he was known, in the sense that his grotesque exterior had long ceased to alienate the curates and make them giggle, and to the extent that he was served with his drink with- out having to call for it. This did not always seem a privilege. He was tolerated, what was more, and let alone by the rough but kindly habitues of the house, recruited for the most part from among dockers, railwaymen and vague joxers on the dole. Here also art and love, scrab- bling in dispute or staggering home, were barred, or, per- haps better, unknown. The aesthetes and the impotent were far away.
These circumstances combined to make of this place a very grateful refuge for Belacqua, who never omitted, when he found himself in its neighbourhood with the price of a drink about him, to pay it a visit.
When I enquired how he squared such visits with his anxiety to keep on the move and his distress at finding himself brought to a standstill, as when he had come out of the underground in the mouth of College Street, he re- plied that he did not. "Surely" he said "my resolution has the right to break down. " I supposed so indeed. "Or" he said "if you prefer, I make the raid in two hops instead of non-stop. From what" he cried "does that disqualify
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me, I should very much like to know. " I hastened to assure him that he had a perfect right to suit himself in what, after all, was a manuoeuvre of his own contriving, and that the raid, to adopt his own term, lost nothing by being made in easy stages. "Easy! " he exclaimed, "how easy? "
But notice the double response, like two holes to a burrow.
Sitting in this crapulent den, drinking his drink, he gradually ceased to see its furnishings with pleasure, the bottles, representing centuries of loving research, the stools, the counter, the powerful screws, the shining pha- lanx of the pulls of the beer-engines, all cunningly devised and elaborated to further the relations between purveyor and consumer in this domain. The bottles drawn and emptied in a twinkling, the casks responding to the slight- est pressure on their joysticks, the weary proletarians at rest on arse and elbow, the cash register that never complains, the graceful curates flying from customer to customer, all this made up a spectacle in which Belacqua was used to take delight and chose to see a pleasant instance of machinery decently subservient to appetite. A great major symphony of supply and demand, effect and cause, fulcrate on the middle C of the counter and wax- ing, as it proceeded, in the charming harmonics of blas- phemy and broken glass and all the aliquots of fatigue and ebriety. So that he would say that the only place where he could come to anchor and be happy was a low public-house, and that all the wearisome tactics of gress and dud Beethoven would be done away with if only he could spend his life in such a place. But as they closed at ten, and as residence and good faith were viewed as incompatible, and as in any case he had not the means to consecrate his life to stasis, even in the meanest bar, he supposed he must be content to indulge this whim from
time to time, and return thanks for such sporadic mercy. All this and much more he laboured to make clear. He seemed to derive considerable satisfaction from his failure
to do so.
But on this particular occasion the cat failed to jump,
with the result that he became as despondent as though he were sitting at home in his own great armchair, as anxious to get on the move and quite as hard put to it to do so. Why this was he could not make out. Whether the trituration of the child in Pearse Street had upset him without his knowing it, or whether (and he put forward this alternative with a truly insufferable complacency) he had come to some parting of the ways, he did not know at all. All he could say was that the objects in which he was used to find such recreation and repose lost gradu- ally their hold upon him, he became insensible to them little by little, the old itch and algos crept back into his mind. He had come briskly all the way from Tommy Moore, and now he suddenly found himself sitting para- lysed and grieving in a pub of all places, good for noth- ing but to stare at his spoiling porter, and wait for a sign.
To this day he does not know what caused him to look up, but look up he did. Feeling the impulse to do this strong upon him, he forced his eyes away from the glass of dying porter and was rewarded by seeing a hat- less woman advancing slowly towards him up the body of the bar. No sooner had she come in than he must have become aware of her. That was surely very curious in the first instance. She seemed to be hawking some ware or other, but what it was he could not see, except that it was not studs or laces or matches or lavender or any of the usual articles. Not that it was unusual to find a woman in that public-house, for they came and went
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freely, slaking their thirst and beguiling their sorrows with no less freedom than their men-folk. Indeed it was al- ways a pleasure to see them, their advances were always most friendly and honourable, Belacqua had many a de- lightful recollection of their commerce.
Hence there was no earthly reason why he should see in the advancing figure of this mysterious pedlar anything untoward, or in the nature of the sign in default of which he was clamped to his stool till closing-time. Yet the impulse to do so was so strong that he yielded to it, and as she drew nearer, having met with more rebuffs than pence in her endeavours to dispose of her wares, what- ever they were, it became clear to him that his instinct had not played him false, in so far at least as she was a woman of very remarkable presence indeed.
Her speech was that of a woman of the people, but of a gentlewoman of the people. Her gown had served its time, but yet contrived to be respectable. He noticed with a pang that she sported about her neck the insidious little mock fur so prevalent in tony slumland. The one deplorable feature of her get up, as apprehended by Belacqua in his hasty survey, was the footwear—the cruel strait outsizes of the suffragette or welfare worker. But he did not doubt for a moment that they had been a
gift, or picked up in the pop for a song. She was of more than average height and well in flesh. She might be past middle-age. But her face, ah her face, was what Belacqua had rather refer to as her countenance, it was so full of light. This she lifted up upon him and no error. Brimful of light and serene, serenissime, it bore no trace of suffering, and in this alone it might be said to be a notable face. Yet like tormented faces that he had seen, like the face in the National Gallery in Merrion Square by the Master of Tired Eyes, it seemed to have come a long way and subtend an
infinitely narrow angle of affliction, as eyes focus a star. The features were null, only luminous, impassive and secure, petrified in radiance, or words to that effect, for the reader is requested to take notice that this sweet style is Belacqua's. An act of expression, he said, a wreathing or wrinkling, could only have had the effect of a dimmer on a headlight. The implications of this triumphant figure, the
just and the unjust, etc. , are better forgone.
At long last she addressed herself to Belacqua.
"Seats in heaven" she said in a white voice "tuppence
apiece, four fer a tanner. "
"No" said Belacqua. It was the first syllable to come to
his lips. It had not been his intention to deny her.
"The best of seats" she said "again I'm sold out. Tup-
pence apiece the best of seats, four fer a tanner. "
This was unforeseen with a vengeance, if not exactly vaudeville. Belacqua was embarrassed in the last degree, but transported also. He felt the sweat coming in the small
of his back, above his Montrouge belt.
"Have you got them on you? " he mumbled.
"Heaven goes round" she said, whirling her arm, "and
round and round and round and round and round. " "Yes" said Belacqua "round and round. "
"Rowan" she said, dropping the d's and getting more of
a spin into the slogan, "rowan an' rowan an' rowan. " Belacqua scarcely knew where to look. Unable to blush he came out in this beastly sweat. Nothing of the kind had ever happened to him before. He was altogether disarmed, unsaddled and miserable. The eyes of them all, the dockers, the railwaymen and, most terrible of all, the joxers, were upon him. His tail drooped. This female dog
of a pixy with her tiresome Ptolemy, he was at her mercy. "No" he said "no thank you, no not this evening thank
you. "
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"Again I'm sold out" she said "an buked out, four fer a tanner. "
"On whose authority Scholar.
. .
. " began Belacqua, like a
"For yer frien' " she said "yer da, yer ma an' yer motte, four fer a tanner. " The voice ceased, but the face did not abate.
"How do I know" piped Belacqua "you're not sellin' me a pup? "
"Heaven goes rowan an' rowan
. "
"Rot you" said Belacqua "I'll take two. How much is that? "
"Four dee" she said.
Belacqua gave her a sixpence.
"Gobbless yer honour" she said, in the same white voice
from which she had not departed. She made to go. "Here" cried Belacqua "you owe me twopence. " He had
not even the good grace to say tuppence.
"Arragowan" she said "make it four cantcher, yer frien',
yer da, yer ma an' yer motte. "
Belacqua could not bicker. He had not the strength of
mind for that. He turned away.
"Jesus" she said distinctly "and his sweet mother pre-
serve yer honour. "
"Amen" said Belacqua, into his dead porter.
Now the woman went away and her countenance
lighted her to her room in Townsend Street.
But Belacqua tarried a little to listen to the music. Then
he also departed, but for Railway Street, beyond the river.
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A Wet Night
JlTark, it is the season of festivity and goodwill. Shop- ping is in full swing, the streets are thronged with revel- lers, the Corporation has offered a prize for the best- dressed window, Hyam's trousers are down again.
Mistinguett would do away with chalets of necessity. She does not think them necessary. Not so Belacqua. Emerging happy body from the hot bowels of Mc- Louglin's he looked up and admired the fitness of Moore's bull neck, not a whit too short, with all due respect to the critics. Bright and cheery above the strom of the Green, as though coached by the Star of Bethlehem, the Bovril sign danced and danced through its seven phases.
The lemon of faith jaundiced, annunciating the series, was in a fungus of hopeless green reduced to shingles and abolished. Whereupon the light went out, in homage to the slain. A sly ooze of gules, carmine of solicitation, lift- ing the skirts of green that the prophecy might be fulfilled, shocking Gabriel into cherry, flooded the sign. But the long skirts came rattling down, darkness covered their shame, the cycle was at an end. Da capo.
Bovril into Salome, thought Belacqua, and Tommy Moore there with his head on his shoulders. Doubt, Des- pair and Scrounging, shall I hitch my bath-chair to the greatest of these? Across the way, beneath the arcade, the blind paralytic was in position, he was well tucked up in
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his coverings, he was lashing into his dinner like any proletarian. Soon his man would come and wheel him home. No one had ever seen him come or go, he was there one minute and gone the next. He went and returned. When you scrounge you must go and return, that was the first great article of Christian scrounging. No man could settle down to scrounge properly in a foreign land. The Wanderjahre were a sleep and a forgetting, the proud dead point. You came back wise and staked your beat in some sheltered place, pennies trickled in, you were looked up to in a tenement.
Belacqua had been proffered a sign, Bovril had made him a sign.
Whither next? To what licensed premises? To where the porter was well up, first; and the solitary shawly like a cloud of latter rain in a waste of poets and politicians, second; and he neither knew nor was known, third. A lowly house dear to shawlies where the porter was up and he could keep himself to himself on a high stool with a high round and feign to be immersed in the Moscow notes of the Twilight Herald. These were very piquant.
Of the two houses that appealed spontaneously to these exigencies the one, situate in Merrion Row, was a home from home for jarveys. As some folk from hens, so Belac- qua shrank from jarveys. Rough, gritty, almost verminous men. From Moore to Merrion Row, moreover, was a peril- ous way, beset at this hour with poets and peasants and politicians. The other lay in Lincoln Place, he might go gently by Pearse Street, there was nothing to stop him. Long straight Pearse Street, it permitted of a simple can- tilena in his mind, its footway peopled with the tranquil and detached in fatigue, its highway dehumanised in a tumult of buses. Trams were monsters, moaning along be- neath the wild gesture of the trolley. But buses were
pleasant, tires and glass and clash and no more. Then to pass by the Queens, home of tragedy, was charming at that hour, to pass between the old theatre and the long line of the poor and lowly queued up for thruppence worth of pictures. For there Florence would slip into the song, the Piazza della Signoria and the No 1 tram and the Feast of St John, when they lit the torches of resin on the towers and the children, while the rockets at nightfall above the Cascine were still flagrant in their memory, opened the little cages to the glutted cicadae after their long confinement and stayed out with their young parents long after their usual bedtime. Then slowly in his mind down the sinister Uffizi to the parapets of Arno, and so on and so forth. This pleasure was dispensed by the Fire Station opposite which seemed to have been copied here and there from the Palazzo Vecchio. In deference to Sa- vonarola? Ha! Ha! At all events it was as good a way as any other to consume the Homer hour, darkness filling the streets and so on, and a better than most in virtue of his great thirst towards the lowly house that would snatch him in off the street through the door of its grocery de- partment if by good fortune that were still open.
Painfully then under the College ramparts, past the smart taxis, he set off, clearing his mind for its song. The Fire Station worked without a hitch and all was going as well as could be expected considering what the evening held in pickle for him when the blow fell. He was run plump into by one Chas, a highbrow bromide of French nationality with a diabolical countenance compound of Skeat's and Paganini's and a mind like a tattered concord- ance. It was Chas who would not or could not leave well alone, Belacqua being rapt in his burning feet and the line of the song in his head.
"Halte-la" piped the pirate, "whither so gay? "
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In the lee of the Monumental Showroom Belacqua was obliged to pause and face this machine. It carried butter and eggs from the Hibernian Dairy. Belacqua however was not to be drawn.
"Ramble" he said vaguely "in the twilight. "
"Just a song" said Chas "at twilight. No? "
Belacqua tormented his hands in the gloom. Had he
been blocked on his way and violated in the murmur of his mind to listen to this clockwork Bartlett? Apparently.
"How's the world" he said nevertheless, in spite of everything, "and what's the news of the great world? "
"Fair" said Chas, cautiously, "fair to meedling. The poem moves, eppure. "
If he mentions ars longa, Belacqua made this covenant with himself, he will have occasion to regret it.
"Limae labor' said Chas "et mora! '
"Well" said Belacqua, casting off with clean hands, "see you again. "
"But shortly, I thrrust" cried Chas, "casa Frica, dis col- lied night. No? "
"Alas" said Belacqua, well adrift.
Behold the Frica, she visits talent in the Service Flats. In she lands, singing Havelock Ellis in a deep voice, frankly itching to work that which is not seemly. Open upon her concave breast as on a lectern lies Portigliotti's Penombre Claustrali, bound in tawed caul.
In her talons earnestly she grasps Sade's 120 Days and the Ante- rotica of Aliosha G. Brignole-Sale, unopened, bound in shagreened caul. A septic pudding hoodwinks her, a stodgy turban of pain it laps her horse face. The eyehole is clogged with the bulbus, the round pale globe goggles exposed. Solitary meditation has furnished her with nos- trils of generous bore. The mouth champs an invisible bit, foam gathers at the bitter commissures. The crateriform
brisket, lipped with sills of paunch, cowers ironically be- hind a maternity tunic. Keyholes have wrung the un- friendly withers, the osseous rump screams behind the hobble-skirt. Wastes of woad worsted advertise the pas- terns. Aie!
This in its absinthe whinny had bidden Belacqua and, what is more, the Alba, to backstairs, claret cup and the intelligentsia. The Alba, Belacqua's current one and only, had much pleasure in accepting for her scarlet gown and broad pale bored face. The belle of the ball. Aie!
But seldom one without two and scarcely had Chas been shed than lo from out the Grosvenor sprang the homespun Poet wiping his mouth and a little saprophile of an anonymous politico-ploughboy setting him off. The Poet sucked his teeth over this unexpected pleasure. The golden eastern lay of his bullet head was muted by no covering. Beneath the Wally Whitmaneen of his Donegal tweeds a body was to be presumed. He gave the impres- sion of having lost a harrow and found a figure of speech. Belacqua was numbed.
"Drink" decreed the Poet in a voice of thunder.
Belacqua slunk at his heels into the Grosvenor, the gim- let eyes of the saprophile probed his loins.
"Now" exulted the Poet, as though he had just brought an army across the Beresina, "give it a name and knock it back. "
"Pardon me" stuttered Belacqua "just a moment, will you be so kind. " He waddled out of the bar and into the street and up it at all speed and into the lowly public through the groceries door like a bit of dirt into a Hoover. This was a rude thing to do. When intimidated he was rude beyond measure, not timidly insolent like Stendhal's Comte de Thaler, but finally rude on the sly. Timidly in- solent when, as by Chas, exasperated; finally rude on the
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sly when intimidated, outrageously rude behind the back of his oppressor. This was one of his little peculiarities.
He bought a paper of a charming little sloven, no but a truly exquisite little page, a freelance clearly, he would not menace him, he skipped in on his miry bare feet with only three or four under his oxter for sale. Belacqua gave him a thruppenny bit and a cigarette picture. He sat to himself on a stool in the central leaf of the main triptych, his feet on a round so high that his knees topped the curb of the counter (admirable posture for man with weak bladder and tendency to ptosis of viscera), drank despondent porter(buthedarednotbudge) anddevouredthepaper.
"A woman" he read with a thrill "is either: a short- below-the-waist, a big-hip, a sway-back, a big-abdomen or an average. If the bust be too cogently controlled, then shall fat roll from scapula to scapula. If it be made pass- able and slight, then shall the diaphragm bulge and be un- sightly. Why not therefore invest chez a reputable corset- builder in the brassiere-cum-corset decollete, made from the finest Broches, Coutils and Elastics, centuple stitched in wearing parts, fitted with immovable spiral steels? It bestows stupendous diaphragm and hip support, it en-
. "
be classified. Not to be corseted. Not woman of flesh.
The face on the curate faded away and Grock's ap-
peared in its stead.
"Say that again" said the red gash in the white putty. Belacqua said it all and much more.
"Nisscht mddddoodglich" moaned Grock, and was gone. Now Belacqua began to worry lest the worst should
come to the worst and the scarlet gown be backless after
hances the sleeveless backless neckless evening gown
O Love! O Fire! but would the scarlet gown lack all these parts? Was she a short-below or a sway-back? She had no waist, nor did she deign to sway. She was not to
. .
all. Not that he had any doubts as to the back thus bared being a sight for sore eyes. The omoplates would be well defined, they would have a fine free ball-and-socket mo- tion. In repose they would be the blades of an anchor, the delicate furrow of the spine its stem. His mind pored over this back that inspired him with awe. He saw it as a flower-de-luce, a spatulate leaf with segments angled back, like the wings of a butterfly sucking a blossom, from their common hinge. Then, fetching from further afield, as an obelisk, a cross-potent, pain and death, still death, a bird crucified on a wall. This flesh and bones swathed in scar- let, this heart of washed flesh draped in scarlet. . . .
Unable to bear any longer his doubt as to the rig of the gown he passed through the counter and got her house on the telephone.
"Dressing" said the maid, the Venerilla, his friend and bawd to be, "and spitting blood. "
No, she could not be got down, she had been up in her room cursing and swearing for the past hour.
'Tm afeared of me gizzard" said the voice "to go near her. "
"Is it closed at the back? " demanded Belacqua "or is it open? "
"Is what? "
"The gown" cried Belacqua, "what else? Is it closed? " The Venerilla requested him to hold on while she called
it to the eye of the mind. The objurgations of this ineffable member were clearly audible.
"Would it be the red one? " she said, after countless ages.
"The scarlet bloody gown of course" he cried out of his torment, "do you not know? "
. "
"Hold on now. . . . It buttons
"Buttons? What buttons? "
"It buttons ups behind, sir, with the help of God. "
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"Say it again" implored Belacqua, "over and over again. "
"Amn't I after saying" groaned the Venerilla "it buttons ups on her. "
"Praise be to God" said Belacqua "and his blissful Mother. "
Calm now and sullen the Alba, dressed insidiously up to the nines, bides her time in the sunken kitchen, paying no heed to her fool and foil who has made bold to lay open Belacqua's distress. She is in pain, her brandy is at hand, mulling in the big glass on the range. Behind her frontage abandoned in elegance, sagging in its elegance and clouded in its native sorrow, a more anxious rite than sumptuous meditation is in progress. For her mind is at prayer-stool before a perhaps futile purpose, she is loading the spring of her mind for a perhaps unimportant under-
taking. Letting her outside rip pro tern she is screwing herself up and up, she is winding up the weights of her mind, to being the belle of the ball, banquet or party. Any less beautiful girl would have contemned such tactics and considered this class of absorption at the service of so simple an occasion unwarranted and, what was worse, a sad give away. Here am I, a less bountiful one would have argued, the belle, and there is the ball; let these two items be brought together and the thing is done. Are we then to insinuate, with such a simplist, that the Alba ques- tioned the virtue of her appearance. Indeed and indeed we are not. She had merely to unleash her eyes, she had merely to unhood them, as well she knew, and she might have mercy on whom she would. There was no difficulty about that. But what she did question, balefully, as though she knew the answer in advance, was the fitness of a dis-
tinction hers for the asking, of a palm that she had merely to open her eyes and assume. That the simplicity of the
gest turned her in the first place against it, relegating it among the multitude of things that were not her genre, is indisputable. But this was only a minute aspect of her po- sition. It is with the disparagement attaching in the thought of Belacqua, and in hers tending to, to the quality of the exploit that she now wrestles. It is with its no doubt unworthiness that she now has to do. Sullen and still, aware of the brandy at hand but not thirsting for it, she cranks herself up to a reality of preference, slowly but surely she gilds her option, she exalts it into realms of choice. She will do this thing, she will be belle of the ball, gladly, gravely and carefully, humiliter, fideliter, simplici- ter, and not merely because she might just as well. Is she, she a woman of the world, she who knows, to halt be- tween two opinions, founder in a strait of two wills, hang in suspense and be the more killed? She who knows? So far from such nonsense she will soon chafe to be off. And now she dare, until it be time, the clock strike, delegate a portion of her attention with instructions to reorganise her features, hands, shoulders, back, outside in a word, the in-
side having been spiked. At once she thirsts for the Hen- nessy. She sings to herself, for her own pleasure, stressing all the words that cry for stress, like Dan the first to warble without fear or favour:
No me jodas en el suelo Como si fuera una perra, Que con esos cojonazos Me echas en el cono tierra.
The Polar Bear, a big old brilliant lecher, was already on his way, speeding along the dark dripping country roads in a crass honest slob of a clangorous bus, engaging with the effervescent distinction of a Renaissance cardinal
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in rather languid tongue-play an acquaintance of long standing, a Jesuit with little or no nonsense about him.
"The Lebensbahn" he was saying, for he never used the English word when the foreign pleased him better, "of the Galilean is the tragi-comedy of the solipsism that will not capitulate. The humilities and retro mes and quaffs of sir- reverence are on a par with the hey presto's, arrogance and egoism. He is the first great self-contained playboy. The cryptic abasement before the woman taken red-handed is as great a piece of megalomaniacal impertinence as his interference in the affairs of his boy-friend Lazarus. He opens the series of slick suicides, as opposed to the serious Empedoclean variety. He has to answer for the wretched Nemo and his corates, bleeding in paroxysms of depit on an unimpressed public. "
He coughed up a plump cud of mucus, spun it round the avid bowl of his palate and stowed it away for future degustation.
The S. J. with little or no nonsense had just enough strength to voice his fatigue.
"If you knew" he said "how you bore me with your twice two is four. "
The P. B. failed to get him.
"You bore me" drawled the S. J. "worse than an infant prodigy. " He paused to recruit his energies. "In his hairless voice" he proceeded "preferring the druggist Borodin to Mozart. "
"Bv all accounts" retorted the P. B. "your sweet Mozart was a Hexenmeister in the pilch. "
That was a nasty one, let him make what he liked of that one.
"Our Lord
"
"Speak for yourself" said the P. B. , nettled beyond en- durance.
"Our Lord was not. "
"You forget" said the P. B. , "he got it all over at procrea- tion. "
"When you grow up to be a big boy" said the Jesuit "and can understand the humility that is beyond masoch- ism, come and talk to me again. Not cis-, ultra-masochistic. Beyond pain and service. "
"But precisely" exclaimed the P. B. , "he did not serve, the late lamented. What else am I saying? A valet does not have big ideas. He let down the central agency. "
"The humility" murmured the janizary "of a love too great for skivvying and too real to need the tonic of urtica- tion. "
The infant prodigy sneered at this comfortable variety.
"You make things pleasant for yourselves" he sneered, "I must say. "
"The best reason" said the S. J. "that can be given for believing is that it is more amusing. Disbelief" said the soldier of Christ, making ready to arise "is a bore. We do not count our change. We simply cannot bear to be bored. "
"Say that from the pulpit" said the P. B. "and you'll be drummed into the wilderness. "
The S. J. laughed profusely. Was it possible to conceive a more artless impostor of a mathematician than this fel- low!
"Would you" he begged, putting his greatcoat on, "would you, my dear good fellow, have the kindness to bear in mind that I am not a Parish Priest. "
"I won't forget" said the P. B. "that you don't scavenge. Your love is too great for the slops. "
"Egg-sactly" said the S. J. "But they are excellent men. A shade on the assiduous side, a shade too anxious to strike
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. " He rose. "Observe" he said, "I desire
a rate. Otherwise
to get down. I pull this cord and the bus stops and lets me down. "
The P. B. observed.
"In just such a Gehenna of links" said this remarkable man, with one foot on the pavement, "I forged my voca- tion. "
With which words he was gone and the burden of his fare had fallen on the P. B.
Chas's girl was a Shetland Shawly. He had promised to pick her up on his way to Casa Frica and now, cinched beyond reproach in his double-breasted smoking, he sub- dued his impatience to catch a tram in order to explain the world to a group of students.
"
"The difference, if I may say so
"Oh" cried the students, una voce, "oh please! "
"The difference, then, I say, between Bergson and Ein-
stein, the essential difference, is as between philosopher and sociolog. "
"Oh! " cried the students.
"Yes" said Chas, casting up what was the longest divul- gation he could place before the tram, which had hove into view, would draw abreast.
"And if it is the smart thing now to speak of Bergson as —
acod"—heedgedaway "itisthatwemovefromtheOb- —
ject"—he made a plunge for the tram "and the Idea to Sense"—he cried from the step "and Reason. "
"Sense" echoed the students "and reason! "
The difficulty was to know what exactly he meant by sense.
"He must mean senses'* said a first, "smell, don't you know, and so on. "
"Nay" said a second, "he must mean common sense. "
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